Originally Posted by
h2s
Disclaimer: I didn't read the entire thread
We have all been there. I am currently there.
I have had a rollercoaster of a life over the past 6 months. In that time I broke up with a girlfriend of 6 years, moved twice, gained new friends, lost track of others, started to party a bit too hard and transitioned to going out less than I should (finally balanced this). While all of this was going on, work (for reasons beyond my control) has spun out of control and working all day to come home and work all night is not uncommon. Last weekend I worked until 4am on sunday to report in at 8 am the next day. During this time, my diet has wavered from awesome to shit, to awesome to shit. Workouts rarely happen, and when they do the energy isn't there. Slowly I stopped going. Towards the begining of the transition, I was on cycle, I literally came off because I realized I was on and wasn't making it to the gym. My physique has gone from 200+lbs with abs, to under 200 with only shallow outlines. People still reference me as muscular, but knowing what I was, I don't internally accept the compliment. I slipped off the face of many forums, and even struggled to keep up with somethings for this one. Fucking sucks.
But it is all an excuse. Life is still crazy. Work is still crazy. Women are still everywhere and desperately want me to spend all my time with them (ok, thats what I tell myself, haha). It is still easier to order take out instead of cook. It is still easier to get more work done instead of lift. None of this changed. None of it will. The only thing that can change is my motivation, and finally it is coming back. I want to return to where I was. I want to. So its on me now. I am back to lifting. I added in some cardio. My meals are tightening up a bit, and I am about to go on a winter bulk. Life is busy and full of things that will bring you down at times, this won't change, but what you do with it can.
Good luck on your return, you are not a fraud, you are human.