Finasterude destroyed my life completely before it got going
It didn't crash me know but the disease it started did
Prior to taking that shut I was a handsome clever but neurotic and introverted. My life hadntbgotbgoing
Ironically when taking it my life got going a bit and I could get girls quite easily I was socialising more and living in the city.
But couldn't keep a girl due to low sex drive and emktional.mounting
2009 I went on and off the white thanks to the online epics who sold me it
I ended up in a sh it database with asoergers sufferer who was an orange basard
I worked with orange bastrds
I crashed January 2009
Coc K felt like it would fall.off
Balls shrank
Lost twenty pounds legs very thin
Spent three months in a psych ward 2009
Then another SIX months in 2011
amazingly I was in ability citalopram Prozac and finally quetipine
In Feb 2011 I got out and moved until I hiuse a council flat
Went on holiday that summer and came off quetipine
Just before that has been to Trieste or was thereafter if I
Amazingly over tendency 18 months libido came back
With Z MA AT FIRST morning erections and some libido
Then if I zinc and vitamin d I think about the only good stuff innit fro. Oh
But looking at my posts on OH you'd think unless still a eunuch
I still believed al! That ALlen Worthington androgen resistance shit even though I was androgenic and feeling great and had regained muscle withiutbgym work
Stupidly I never did anything the following years to boost unhealthy
Bhai. Fog went away after thereafter so
Fatigue after two
Felt good within myself for several years
Travelled had many interests zero anhedinia
Wanked all the time
Was handsome and looked younger
But I didn't fuck not even a hooker
Stupid
Then was bullied in an office full.if cunts
They knew I'd had mental.health stuff as if told them as.a service user
This fat cunt also found out I had PFS
I should have left but hung around and in 2019 started talk g seroquel
Install recover ed I. 2020 in ZMA gkycinate
I had t taken Z MA for a long time I should have done
Going down hill 2021 still androgens stil! Had libido and erections but lost nocturnal
I also took mirtazipine briefly in 2019
2022 went sharply down hill after January I remember watching the Australian tennis open final and was vaping made me feel sh it
Went down and down and dashed in JUne
Even before the crash I wanted
After the crash my coc K shrank an inch and a half or so balls shrank again varicocleel again?
Worse still horrendous insomnia and muscle wastage all over my bidy.
Life destroyed since
No hope to work ever again at forty six let alone have a wide and kid
THE best thing?
In all that time the gimps at ph barely move research forward one hard
So theyre staring from scratch led by Henry the eighth on an ego trip and the autist
Fuck my existence.
