Ricky’s Ride to Baseline & Beyond
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Originally Posted by
JBG
Love the attitude man, I’m in soho actually. I get you on the mental health/self improvement aspect. Fortunately my mental sides/brain fog eased up significantly after the first few weeks.
Now approaching 2 months off and my libido is still pretty nonexistent. Still early days though. Been on the protocol for a few weeks now and definitely made progress in the mental department. Still early days...
It’s the long game man, I know how tough it could be in NYC, you around so many people yet feel alone.. but be empowered by the shit your going through. I had to deal with this in my early 20s in this city. I’m sure many young kids my age would have blown their brains out with something like this.. guaranteed.. knowing that makes me feel strong.
I’m not gonna lie this thing can humble anyone, but I feel like I’m better than a lot of people cause I’m not a victim to this, I truly feel like my will is greater than most...meanwhile the “normal” people are victims to whatever they got going on, they have it easy..
There’s a reason why people who recover feel superhuman. Imagine having that mindset through this thing & then actually getting it all back + some more???Talk about getting thrown into the wolves and come out leading the pack.
Maybe I’ll be 24 when I’m done with this ,25,26, who knows.. I’m enjoying it now, & I will enjoy it more later. There’s a whole life ahead of me.
Ricky’s Ride to Baseline & Beyond
Yesterday went out to Jersey and..
1. Had sex, cummed
2. Got oral, cummed
3. Had sex, didnt finish, things kinda numbed out..
- Using condoms has helped deal with the quick trigger. I have good control and basically decide when I want to finish..Lord knows not seeing porn in a year and half and no fap will bring these problems, especially when I’m sticking my raw dick in these women, which i should stop doing anyway.
ON ANOTHER NOTE.
Anyone tried the Dream N Grow from IML? I have it here and want to use it when I’m on cycle in March 10th to recover from gym sessions better. Especially since I’ll be going 200% full throttle on cycle.... I’m hearing it’s opiate like and can cause libido issues???
Ricky’s Ride to Baseline & Beyond
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Originally Posted by
Cdsnuts
Where about's in Jersey were you? I live in Toms River. Sounds like you had a very nice day yesterday. Two different women? And yeah man...try and wrap it bro...not worth getting another issue to deal with because you went raw.
The "opiate like" substance in Dream and Grow is Kratom. And yes, it can, and will cause libido issues if taken regularly. If you use it once or twice a week max, you'll be okay, but no more then that. When used sporadically it will actually delay orgasm in men, which is fantastic. Just don't fall into the trap of daily use which is easy to do.
I was by New Brunswick. Your much further down l.. Where I live in NYC there’s a lot of girls, but this one was so damn hot I said fuck it and took the train out there. I damn near fell for her lol. I don’t really get that much play with the Caucasian’s lol. This one had a Latin like physique too, I couldn’t resist..
& No, it was one girl. But I chalked it up as a small PFS win cause of the multiple rounds. My frequency with sex seems to be getting a bit better..
It was cool to be out in the suburbs too, reminds me that there is a much bigger world outside of manhattan. Very relaxing.
& your right about adding another problem to my situation, but at this point it doesn’t seem like this is a problem.. don’t get me wrong pfs is there, I can feel it, but it’s not the hell that we all know. It’s livable.
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Ricky’s Ride to Baseline & Beyond
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Originally Posted by
Cdsnuts
My Father is from New Brunswick, I'm there often.
Seems to be getting better? It IS getting better.
And good. Livable is a godsend after being in the hellish state of barely being able to function.
I like to visit the city, and then go back to the burbs. I could never live there. I'm too impatient of a person to live around that many people. Fuck that. Especially because I grew up in a beach town. No place clears your head like an empty beach in the off season. I often do my breathing exercises and meditation there.
Sounds like you're coming along nicely. You'll be in a fantastic spot come summer. Perfect timing.
If it’s not the summer it’s all good, if it’s two summers from now it’s all good as well. I’m enjoying the moment and letting go of timelines. I can function so that’s that, that feeling of battling minute by minute is what I truly despised the most...
it’s alright, I know what to do, I’m doing it, only thing is Father Time. little stuff like slight anxiety and angst are just inconveniences that can definitely be dealt with. It’s funny how pfs gives you a different perspective..when your in that hell, just having any type of function feels great. So in your head being 100% normal feels amazing & your high on life.. but you forget it’s how you should feel though, it’s how you always were...
I knew you’d be up in the city chasing tail lol... When you grow up in the city you get drained with the fast paced lifestyle of trains, buses, everyone always working 24/7 nonstop. In New York everyone’s just worried about getting their shit done and going home so there are NO manners, it’s just part of living here..just a bunch of people walking around not connecting..it’s very unnatural..Its gritty as hell..when you go to the suburbs it’s definitely something different, I’m always caught off guard when people talk to me in the suburbs cause they are so polite..it’s refreshing and let’s my guard down.
I notice that when I go to the burbs, I really like it at first, the whole idea of your own home, yard, driveway. It really feels like a home when I visit..after a while though it gets too quiet, then I realize I’m a city kid at heart and in a fucked up way miss the noise & I’m used to the tight spaces..I would like to live in jersey or Long Island ; but in a place not too far from the noise, that would be the perfect balance.
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Ricky’s Ride to Baseline & Beyond
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Originally Posted by
SS7
Nice work! The "old fella" hard as he should be/working as before now? No PDE5is for you now? Mate you're definitely killing this!
I still use PDE5’s for assurance & to calm my nerves.. I’ve had failures from anxiety pre pfs.. so, I really couldn’t tell you man.. once I take one, I feel good, I know it’s going down 100% no doubt...the question after that is how many rounds I got in me...
I do however get one or two spontaneous boners a day, the EQ isn’t optimal like I was before this , but it’s good enough for sex I’d say (if I didn’t use them) .. on the worst days I’d get random semi hard ones, but the brain connection to down there is deff improving..
Of course I don’t prefer to be on this as a crutch, but I have no problem using these for the rest of my life if need be. ( Being overdramatic, will deff come off when 100% recovered )....I get an abundance of them so it’s not a dent on my wallet at ALL, it’s like buying skittles.
I’m not even a year in man, I only did one cycle too.. so it’s just.. time man..that’s the only thing left in my puzzle. & sexual stuff is usually last to fix.