Just come out of hospital...please help
Listen dude, I know everything is hell for you right now..When all hell breaks loose, just get on protocol. This thing is very simple but hard. The hard part is not second guessing and being consistent through ups and downs. The simple part is just getting the main parts dialed in. (Diet, exercise,herbs)
What your going through is real, but the analysis paralysis compounds things.
The other day when I was hanging out with friends I had a bit of social anxiety cause this would be the first of many times where I would say no to a drink & certain foods. I was gonna be “that guy” for the first time. I just turned 23 and I live in New York City, imagine that, so many girls and so many different foods I’m missing out on while being sober and staying away from weed & booze.
I believe we have a legitimate condition that does give us mental things... but the stress also comes from your drastic lifestyle change & bringing that into social situations..constantly comparing your situation to a normal person. You’re at a social place & you see everyone is at their regular 100% baseline & here you are. It’s lonely and you kind of feel left out. ...but then after turning them down, (there was some pushback “wtf Rick?” “Oh look at this guy” “aww man he’s sober now” but I never backed down) it was all good after & real chill. They respected it... It put me at ease. Then I realized that no one really gives a fuck anyway.
Talking about gaba & this & that (all the sciencey breaking things down endocrinology talk that i despise in forums) shows that just like me, & many of us, your a thinker. This is a blessing because it means we are smart & analytical but also a curse when your in a situation like yours cause your mind is racing & you just want it to stop
When nothing makes sense, just get on protocol.
Do a reset & fast if need be.
Don’t worry & just live. In my uncomfortable moments i like to just observe my thoughts like a spectator in the 3rd person. I know they are not mine. It’s pretty cool & there’s a method to my own madness in this regard . ...That works for me. & it makes the whole experience interesting & you learn a lot about yourself.. this is sometimes my alternative to meditation & wim hof cause these days I’m just too busy. In your case your feeling all this shit, just try your best to look at yourself in 3rd person, know that these thought patterns and behaviors is Not you.. & just observe it.
Sometimes recovery can seem impossible to our minds because its fairly simple & we believe that we need this super calculated approach like we’re solving the DaVinci Code . “You mean if i eat right, exercise, rotate herbs & take cold showers I will be cured?”. people think that it has to be this extremely complicated intellectual strategy that gets thrown out in other forums to get better. nope. Just do it. & live life. Forget about it all.
Based on looking at a lot of the threads here,
I was generally worried about not being 100% organic . Truthfully I’m like 25% organic.. I eat Paleo & I don’t care about portions. Sometimes I eat a ton of fruit, ton of nuts, drink a ton of organic kefir that store bought.. I’m not here calculating all the time. I’m simply just eating what I’m supposed to eat under the guidelines. Our body loves it all anyway so why make it more complicated.
The people that are taking a bit longer to recover is because of two things
A. Their body is moving at their own pace. This thing is generally a 6 month to 3.5 year process to full recovery (I’m including the 3-6 months your supposed to stay on protocol after your symptoms are generally gone)
B. The setbacks from getting off protocol. In Driven’s case he took fin after a year of recovering, people have relapses, drink, do drugs, take Pharma etc. CD had setbacks of his own plus he was winging it with a lot of these pieces which shows why it took him 5 years.
C. Starting from a very very low baseline.
Reason B is also a reason why we(mostly I) have to stop comparing to other people’s timelines. You don’t know other people’s journey.
FAST & then get on it..
I worry less now cause I know I’m doing the 2 month herbal rotation & 6 weeks Andro for the rest of my life with the diet..So all this is just a matter of time when the main Pillars are dialed in. I think this whole thing is also easier when you plan on making it a generally permanent change even after recovery. When you see yourself doing this past 100% the whole thing does not seem like an ordeal. “Okay 1 more year till I can have cake” VS “I’m never having cake again”. The first thought process sounds like a damn prison sentence.
Sorry for the long post. I just know where you are & I’m trying to give you multiple perspectives based on my experiences so far. I’m 3-4 months in after my fast. I am better than before definitely by sticking to the main points. Only thing I’m not consistent with is wim hof & mediation.
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