Originally Posted by
coppersocks
Dude, helping you through this is not wasting anyone's time. Helping others is the best thing that someone can do with their lives, not a second of that is a waste. You're not a waste, you can live a good life. Despite what you think you can actually live life before and whilst you get better. Life doesn't go on without you, you're part of it. Yes there are unique obstacles for you in your life and getting on the protocol but we all deal with different circumstances everyday. This lie that you are telling yourself that you are no good or can't get better is exactly that; a lie. View it for what it is, it's just a negative thought that you identify with. When you recognise it for that you can see that it is a terrible waste to give up because of a thought. You say you don't have willpower? Bullshit. You do. Everyone does. You're just allowing that thought to dictate to you what your perception of yourself is.
I know you want overnight success; we all did. But having a low libido doesn't have to mean not enjoying other areas of your life; you can still be social, be creative and have fun. That's all there. Yes the chemistry in your brain right now makes negative thoughts more likely and it harder to see how you can have positive experiences but believe me; they are still there waiting for you. And that's what the mental aspects of the protocol are for; the meditation, breath work, cold showers, etc. This is all stuff that is right now within your control. Is ending your life really a better option than giving those tried and tested habits a go? Why would it be? Isn't everything worth trying, particularly if it helps alleviate pain that you're feeling? You know it is.
Ending your life is not the answer. It'll only put more suffering into the world and it'll do so needlessly. You can put one foot in front of the other, you can slowly put into place ways in which you can finally do the protocol. You can start the good habits now and you can start feeling better in yourself from today. Libido isn't the be all and end all. Yes, it can be the light at the end of the tunnel in regards to the protocol but the journey of self improvement and taking the little steps to give yourself the strength it takes to get there are worth it in and of themselves. You just have to tell yourself that you're worth it, like everyone here knows you are.