Run the full protocol again, fast to finish. If you hold it consistently for 3-6 months, you will realize this is not permanent. Really take stock of what’s going on and how you actually feel and focus on those. You just said you were really worried after also stating that you have hardcore emotional numbness. I think it’s important to realize that you may not be as bad off as you write and that this is something that you can fix and will fix with time. Take care of yourself man.