if it wasnt for a dog i wouldve killed myself when i was 19. now if i didnt have kids i would have probably killed myself. between my fucked up life experiences and the chemicals in my brain (nature/nurture) im pretty screwed up. i pray to always be in recovery because my life is overall pretty good but its a lot of shit i dont feel like doing at times because im tired/depressed. DBT, CBT, support groups, the gym, just having hobbies and me time and appropriate rest time, writing and talking with people. spilling my shit of BBing forums lol i gotta go do shit i dont want to now so ill post more later maybe