Sharing my journey with you all - Blackkey

[blackkey96]

All, just an update
Since January 2021 i have been getting a few days where I actually wake up positive that has been happening quite a lot lately. I have figured out that this has damaged my gut extensively so I am doing like a complete keto diet and in fact i don't even want to deal with meat because it just feels like too much work trying to find the "right" kind. I'll maybe occasionally have some
I'm also not doing any fruit either. Sugar and carbs are completely out. So is protein powder. How am I supposed to take so much protein powder and expect a weak stomach to handle it? Yes I am probably not gaining any muscle but will that affect my recovery in any way? I can always start taking it when I recover so idk would like some advice on that.

In regards to penile atrophy, I do think the kind of atrophy I have had isn't the same as many of the people who have recovered have had. I have loss of tissue at the base of the penis which I have not heard anybody else have. I'm fine with it though because as long as the dick works i don't care.

What I'm not fine with though is how back in December 2020, the bathmate damaged my penis. Just from the SECOND TIME USAGE.. It really did not help at all and made me dysmorphic. Why is it in this protocol?! And why is it recommended to be used with 3 rounds 5 minutes each (with a 1-2minute break) in the middle?! As if i wasn't atrophied enough already? With all due respect @Cdsnuts people are going through hell when they are trying to find a regimen
I get you want to keep the lights on but why would you recommend something like this to people who are at their weakest? That really damaged my faith in the protocol tbh but I just continued with diet and herbs which I am still doing right now. I'm a fucking trooper in my life & this did me in tbh. Fuck the bathmate times 30. And nobody tell me I didn't "use" it properly because I followed the instructions to a T. I guess shit (on top of shit) happens. I'm over it though.

I'm also deathly afraid of anything "extra" aka not herbs/diet/exercise now because of this. It really messed with my head when I damaged my dick it's gotten much better now but still. Fuck that device I threw it away immediately after. Waste of $60. I wish I could do pro hormones but God knows what kind of new unexpected shit it's going to create for me.

To sum it up, i'm super super strict on diet, no meat (making a salad is much easier that's all), no vegetable oil, no fruit, no protein powder and no carbs. Is backloading necessary?
And I am pushing through downswings but when the rare upswings come I cherish them.


Please don't hate me for criticizing certain aspects of your protocol @Cdsnuts i know you work hard on it but i would still like you to give me any advice if you have. Thanks everyone.