Originally Posted by
Maxout777
Well, it's been awhile since I've made a little update.
I'm coming to the finish of my second cycle of R-Andro Rx. I'm at a really good place right now to where I don't think about this near as much as I used to. In my previous posts months ago I mentioned being 70% or 80% recovered, but there's no way that was the case......compared to even those posts, I feel amazing today. I'm not back 100%, but I've made significant strides in the sexual ballpark lately and mentally I'm pretty much as I was before or damn close to it. Continuing the regimen, and I can see myself being where I want to be in the next 6 months or so if my pace continues like it has (next month will be my 6th or 7th month following this regimen 100%....cant remember the exact day I started lol). I look forward to things again, and more importantly my day-to-day thoughts aren't about this shit anymore, and that has been huge I believe....an absolute relief.
I post this update because I won't be around much for the next few months. I want to follow the advice of English to avoid getting into this talk and chatter about this stuff. I don't mind helping guys out but at the moment I've finally got my thoughts back and how they need to be and I'd just prefer to be away from it for a little bit. I wish there was more non-PFS talk going on on the site at the moment to engage in but things are a little slow at the moment. I'm so thankful to CD, English, and everyone who has either helped or supported me through this - it's been a life changing experience, and I'm not even finished yet. I'm a better person, friend, brother, son, and most importantly fiance/boyfriend/husband than I ever would've been before this happened to me. I no longer use the crutch of alcohol to fight inner demons (PTSD and other shit that will go with me for the rest of my life probably) and I genuinely enjoying being, even in a less than optimal state. People who I work with have even commented that it's good to see me "back" and I never even really told them I had anything wrong with me......so that's a good sign right there. Looking back at my lifestyle prior to this - I was slowly killing myself through booze, drugs, shitty sleeping habits, and I was loving every minute of it. Knowing what I know now, I'm confident I will have a much healthier and fulfilling life going forward.
I've been unfortunate that life has thrown me many curveballs in my past, and getting through those definitely helped spark my belief that I could get through this. I had pretty much conquered my PTSD (or at least got to the point where I wasn't significantly bothered by it) in the years before I got slammed with PFS - so this is the second thing I'm slowly laying to rest.
Thank you guys again, so much. I will never be able to repay the amount of gratitude I have for helping me save my life. I have a future to look forward to again, and all of this work I've done and continue to do has been SO, SO WORTH IT.