Originally Posted by
CSM25
Ok I've read the stickies, and I know you guys are direct and to the point here. But I have not seen so much about bone loss, and eyes wrinkled, hollow, and most of all one's face looking smaller. I am completely different now. I was attractive until September when I put the mood stabilizer in my body (making hair fall out, few would say I was suffering signifcant hair loss if any before -- but I knew it thinned from Adderall a few yrs prior). Anyways, then i freaked out and got on Fin in January of this year.
I'm bedridden, feeling extremely suicidal, not looking for jobs. Graduated... didn't care. Got my surgery -- for my stomach, barely cared. I wanted to resolve that issue for like 12 years! This isn't me. I don't know how I can follow all the protocol over the course of 2 years. I'm sorry to sound whiny, but this doesn't make sense to me. I tried some meds - briefly, they ruin me forever? This is fucking crazy. I know you all struggled as well and I'm sorry you did.
To put in perspective, I lived in my building 2+ years. Happily or near it (overworked, stressed, but very fit, healthy, very energetic, studied) -- 1.5 years or more - in my last apartment. And miserable in my newer place in the same building. I begun Finasteride, soon after coming here in Jan. I've wasted most this year and this isn't me. I don't understand, I lost 70lb, went from a horrible bodyfat % to lean over the years. Many years ago.... And Was getting better and better. Now, a slight fuck up in taking meds - ruins me. How can I do sales, or ACT -- which is what I had in mind if I look terrible?