Alchemical Recovery out of hell of PSSD after taking similar 5ar pharma drug

[Bankai9000]

@slader1 try yoga. It's way easier to stick to for the start. You will get quite some deep breathing in there and destress your body physically aswell. 
I still don't get why you don't fast xd start the protocol from scratch man it's awful seeing you still shitty for so long

[slader1]

I tried yoga the first couple of years after my crash- I didn't notice much improvement during that time.

I tried fast a couple years back and felt horrendous. My cortisol and adrenaline were so high that I couldn't sleep at all and eventually went back to juicing. I suppose I could try fasting again as I'm in an awful way and am desperate.

I am beginning to suspect that my PFS is uniquely bad because of the abnormally high dose I took and the young age at which I took it. Ive been doing the dietary recommendations here for two months now and not seen improvement, and overall I am somehow mentally worse off than I was 8 years ago, even though I have generally avoided stress. I am going to try a few changes like fasting, dropping coffee, cold showers, etc but something deep down tells me I may have to accept this hell and move on.

[helpisontheway]

What book alchemy?

[Alchemy]

What book alchemy?

Ultra mind solution by Mark Hyman. The guy suffered mercury poisoning and preaches a similar mythology to the protocol , such as deep breathing to simulate the vague nerve, cutting out gluten, chelating heavy metals, repairing the gut etc

A lot of stuff that's advised I wouldn't recommend doing/taking but it's a pretty inspiring read when you read how bad he was how and how many patients he's helped

[RickTheRuler]

Man alchemy that's awesome. Being able to think and talk again sounds like it would be so fun. I just don't get why I can't improve even after eating clean, trying a littany of vitamin's and minerals, and working out. Maybe you're right and I need to stick more precisely with one exact protocol, but it still doesn't make sense that I wouldn't sense some improvement. Day to day I am still suffering so much I can barely stand it, most of body is numb if it isn't hurting, I have constant head pressures or aches, and I feel like Im not even inside of my own body which is the most disturbing and uncomfortable thing. It's very hard to get through a day when you can just barely sense the world around you, and then you need to stick to a difficult diet, meditate, take cold showers, workout, and do all these other things which I can't find any willpower to accomplish. I guess one just keeps marching on though.

Well, this is why so few people recover. it’s one of those things you really can’t half ass, you gotta be on point and consistent with everything, make it your life..Almost obsessive with it, we all aren’t perfect but coming out of this you gotta be damn close to it. It’s unlike anything else and the level of accountability you need to have for yourself could be overwhelming. It takes being on the straight and narrow to such a high degree to get out of this.. Shit I thought I was disciplined, and this thing taught me that I still gotta take it up a notch and buckle down. & when your a young man on this road it could sometimes get very lonely. The journey is unique for sure..


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[Alchemy]

Week 2 on Andro Hard Cycle

Decided to crank things up a bit by going the full recommended dose of 600mg from yesterday and woke up horny as fuck this morning to the point I had to masturbate. Had a crazy sex dream where I felt like I was fucking this girl I know for real. Every position and every movement felt like I was there in the flesh

So far brain fog is more or less completely gone now. I can interact and concentrate like a normal human being, the only thing missing is the ability to feel joy which is the lingering depressive anhedonic mood. Also had a few days where lethargy has been coming on but I noticed it is from drinking the raw milk kefir which I've now eliminated since I notice the wipe out drowsiness was coming after that.

Waking up every day with mw, which sometimes don't go away

Psoriasis is finally going

Deeper sleep and more vivid dreams

Workouts are simply amazing.

So what's left to sort out

Sensitivity and brain penis connection

Mood joy/euphoria

Planning on doing 4-6 more weeks then back on herb rotation, though I'd love to be able to take this stuff forever lol

I think I'm edging closer to the optimal diet for me finally after years of experimenting, falling off the wagon getting sidetracked and making mistakes. If I can be strict with myself for another 6 months I think I can heal 100% for sure.

[xxaleksi]

Week 2 on Andro Hard Cycle

Decided to crank things up a bit by going the full recommended dose of 600mg from yesterday and woke up horny as fuck this morning to the point I had to masturbate. Had a crazy sex dream where I felt like I was fucking this girl I know for real. Every position and every movement felt like I was there in the flesh

So far brain fog is more or less completely gone now. I can interact and concentrate like a normal human being, the only thing missing is the ability to feel joy which is the lingering depressive anhedonic mood. Also had a few days where lethargy has been coming on but I noticed it is from drinking the raw milk kefir which I've now eliminated since I notice the wipe out drowsiness was coming after that.

Waking up every day with mw, which sometimes don't go away

Psoriasis is finally going

Deeper sleep and more vivid dreams

Workouts are simply amazing.

So what's left to sort out

Sensitivity and brain penis connection

Mood joy/euphoria

Planning on doing 4-6 more weeks then back on herb rotation, though I'd love to be able to take this stuff forever lol

I think I'm edging closer to the optimal diet for me finally after years of experimenting, falling off the wagon getting sidetracked and making mistakes. If I can be strict with myself for another 6 months I think I can heal 100% for sure.

Sounds like you’re doing well. How many pumps are you taking?

[Alchemy]

Sounds like you’re doing well. How many pumps are you taking?

Just realised I'm not even close to the full dose yet.

I've been doing 4 pumps for the last week and only increased to 6 2x daily from yesterday and really feeling it dialing in now. But on the back of the bottle it suggests 6-10 pumps. So I could go up to 10 pumps. Really could be underdosing myself, just been doing what through other members on here have been dosing

I must say, this stuff is the shit, my veins were bulging out of my arms working out today, I thought they were gonna pop lol. I was thinking to myself, don't make it so obvious you're on prohormones, I had to force myself to stop exercising, I nearly ran out of exercises to do and still buzzing with energy hours later

Then there is this calm assertive confidence it brings which is really nice.

Really feeling amped/charged up and finding small things funny and enjoyable again.

Treated myself to 20ounces worth of ribeye steak to stock up on

Let;s fucking do this..

[Cdsnuts]

80-10-10....been there, done that. Man.....one of the roughest times of my life. That was back in my Panama days with Doug Grahm and Loren Lockman. Loren was a nice guy, but the diets they preach aside from doing them for detoxing, they are NOT sustainable, at all. Expecially if you're Caucasian.... you're a caveman, bottom line, you need animal protein and fat....that is how your snowman ass evolved. The fruitarian cult they have going on over there is a bit scary....lol. They all look horrible but lie to them selves and tell each other how young they look. I spent months with them....I'm talking from experience....lol.

@slader1 The brain supps can be rotated as well. Or you can run one for a few weeks at a time and then switch. Try it out, play with it. See what works best for you.

And you really got to get on the breathing my man. It's a GAME CHANGER when done properly and consistently.

[Alchemy]

Little update on week 3 andro cycle

Feeling very lethargic,sluggish and unmotivated. Had a shitty stressful week last week which didn't help and was around a girl who has some very bad eating habits which I picked up and kind of messed up my momentum.

So ended up eating cakes, burgers and some sweets lol which has brought the psoriasis back with a vengeance and don't feel good generally at all, besides only the brain fog hasn't returned.

Libido is pretty much non existent although I'm waking up with boners every morning and sensitivity has improved slightly

But what's killing me is the depressive low lethargy, aggression seems to have gone and generally experiencing feelings of frustration that I'm having to deal with this shit though I know I can't avoid the reality of the situation, just got to accept and face it head on and understand there are going to be set backs.

Positives

Brain fog gone
Voice is a bit stronger
Little more sensitivity downstairs
Gaining weight,strength and muscle

Negatives

No libido
Depression little to no motivation
Testicle is still shrunken
Psoriasis came back from the dead
Ran out of bone broth, magnesium, vitamin C and iodine
Grass fed Meat to sustain yourself on is expensive as fuck