Let’s Go - My Journey to 100%

[Cdsnuts]

I might be starting to get another upswing. My sensitivity suddenly jumped way up, higher than it’s been during PFS. Way higher.

I stopped the prohormone cycle after just four weeks because I felt like I was in a slump and wanted to restart the herbal rotation, and within a few days of that it seemed like I’d made significant gains. Maybe the prohormones were helping in the background even though I didn’t “feel” anything from them, but I’m not sure. This is definitely at least a medium-swing.

NOT maybe. The ARE working in the background. One of the main reasons we cycle. And one of the reasons for a shorter recovery time.

You will make gains after each cycle. Some gains will be neurological, some physical, etc., but you will make gains after every cycle whether you feel it or not. Then after a certain amount of cycles, it just "clicks."

You'll feel it. Probably responsible for what you're feeling now.

Keep doing what you're supposed to be doing and you'll keep getting what you're getting.

[LetsGo]

I’m doing pretty well symptoms-wise, kind of in between an upswing and downswing, but at a higher baseline than usual.

I got vaccinated for Hepatitis A and HPV, and I’ll need more shots later this year to complete that. It kind of knocked me on my ass for two days since I got both first doses at the same time. But I don’t want to get Hep A when traveling, or HPV as my personal life ramps up.

I’m starting to pack up my apartment - all the stuff I haven’t touched in years - all the clutter. I packed up six small boxes and there’s many more to go. There’s also some stuff I can donate or discard before I sell my car. I’ll get my car detailed and then start advertising it soon (I can’t have a car in NYC because of parking issues,) and look for my next apartment.

I also need to pull the trigger on telling my landlord and boss I’m leaving at the end of August. I already unofficially told my boss, but I need to send it officially.

I sent out 80 letters to potential clients, and ordered 500 more units of my stationary. When I sent the previous 20 in March, I got one client a few weeks later, so if I can get 1 or 2 more from those 80 letters I will be elated. It’ll mean I have my mechanism for getting as much business as I can handle (which means scaling up in 2022.) I don’t expect a hit rate of 5%, but if it’s 2% that will be amazing since I can send out like 1,000 each month and start making more money than I ever thought I’d make.

Anyway, I’ve also been getting morning wood regularly for the last week or so, and my libido is moderate about every two to three days. The next prohormone cycle will be in late July, one month after my one month cycle.

[Cdsnuts]

I’m doing pretty well symptoms-wise, kind of in between an upswing and downswing, but at a higher baseline than usual.

I got vaccinated for Hepatitis A and HPV, and I’ll need more shots later this year to complete that. It kind of knocked me on my ass for two days since I got both first doses at the same time. But I don’t want to get Hep A when traveling, or HPV as my personal life ramps up.

I’m starting to pack up my apartment - all the stuff I haven’t touched in years - all the clutter. I packed up six small boxes and there’s many more to go. There’s also some stuff I can donate or discard before I sell my car. I’ll get my car detailed and then start advertising it soon (I can’t have a car in NYC because of parking issues,) and look for my next apartment.

I also need to pull the trigger on telling my landlord and boss I’m leaving at the end of August. I already unofficially told my boss, but I need to send it officially.

I sent out 80 letters to potential clients, and ordered 500 more units of my stationary. When I sent the previous 20 in March, I got one client a few weeks later, so if I can get 1 or 2 more from those 80 letters I will be elated. It’ll mean I have my mechanism for getting as much business as I can handle (which means scaling up in 2022.) I don’t expect a hit rate of 5%, but if it’s 2% that will be amazing since I can send out like 1,000 each month and start making more money than I ever thought I’d make.

Anyway, I’ve also been getting morning wood regularly for the last week or so, and my libido is moderate about every two to three days. The next prohormone cycle will be in late July, one month after my one month cycle.

Totally OT, but a 2% response in direct mail is good these days. That's how I market my business as well (My real business....you know, the one that pays the bills)

[LetsGo]

Totally OT, but a 2% response in direct mail is good these days. That's how I market my business as well (My real business....you know, the one that pays the bills)

Thanks, it looks like I’m getting an even higher response rate than I thought - about 5% or so respond to me, but I can’t take calls at my day job and 100% of the time I lose those potential clients when I call them back after work. (My day job is costing me money, and I should think of it in those terms.) So I’m only getting hired by the leads who email me.

Hearing that 2% is normal is great, I feel like I’m hitting it out of the park! Also, this is supposed to be a very dark and hard time for my practice area, so when things pick up it’s going to be crazy and I could end up hiring people. I’m so excited, but I have to take it one step at a time and focus on these early steps first.

It’s hard juggling this with a day job, but tomorrow I’m sending in the email about my last day, in mid-august, and fortunately my boss is letting me use my 3 months of vacation after my last day, so I will get some extra money from that.

Isn’t direct mail so much better than Google Ads? It felt like a casino, where I’d get floods off leads and then it would randomly stop working for a full month.

[Cdsnuts]

Thanks, it looks like I’m getting an even higher response rate than I thought - about 5% or so respond to me, but I can’t take calls at my day job and 100% of the time I lose those potential clients when I call them back after work. (My day job is costing me money, and I should think of it in those terms.) So I’m only getting hired by the leads who email me.

Hearing that 2% is normal is great, I feel like I’m hitting it out of the park! Also, this is supposed to be a very dark and hard time for my practice area, so when things pick up it’s going to be crazy and I could end up hiring people. I’m so excited, but I have to take it one step at a time and focus on these early steps first.

It’s hard juggling this with a day job, but tomorrow I’m sending in the email about my last day, in mid-august, and fortunately my boss is letting me use my 3 months of vacation after my last day, so I will get some extra money from that.

Isn’t direct mail so much better than Google Ads? It felt like a casino, where I’d get floods off leads and then it would randomly stop working for a full month.

Never used google ads. But in the insurance business, it's the bread and butter of your clients. (Direct Mail)

[LetsGo]

So it’s been a little while since my last post, and it’s time for an update. This is the last week of my current job, and it can’t come soon enough. My boss was surprised that I wanted to leave and kept asking me if I was sure, etc but I felt no regret handing him the official resignation letter that is required for me to get my ~12 weeks of accrued vacation cashed out slowly over the next 12 weeks.

I am consumed with the apartment search and I’ll end up probably selling my car to a dealership (ugh) instead of privately but I will shop around over the phone, etc. I have some good apartment candidates but it’s harder coordinating that from +100 miles away, but I think it should be nailed down this weekend (fingers crossed.) And then it shouldn’t take too long to sell the car, hire movers, etc.

On August 1st I started a Super R Andro cycle that will last throughout August. Then I will go again through all of October, month off again, then December.

The gains I’ve made from the last cycle seem pretty real and have stuck with me, so it will be fun to see what gains I make from this cycle. I still have an entire untouched bottle for once this one runs out, and then I’m not sure if I’ll need another bottle after that or not. I definitely don’t intend to use the prohormones anymore once I’m at 100%. (Not sure how healthy they would be to use for the super long term.)

I have been getting horrible sleep most nights (4 to 5 hours) as I juggle the day job with my law firm. I stopped advertising weeks ago and still get clients trickling in so I am busy. Once I have everything settled and I have my new place, I will dial up the ads again and get cracking on that. Last night I got 8 hours of sleep and still felt exhausted in the morning; it will take time to get well-rested again. That will only help me recover better and faster, the lack of sleep is working against me and slowing things down, although I do feel like I could fully recover either way, it’s just miserable and unhealthy to not get enough sleep.

The area where I’m looking at living (I don’t want to say where so please don’t ask,) has a perfect spot nearby for sprinting, good gyms, and it’s close to a shared office type of setup where I could rent a super small office for meeting clients and working outside of my apartment. Also lots of nice restaurants and subway stations. So I’m excited and right now I’m just focusing on getting a suitable apartment - last weekend I checked out 5 apartments and realized which area I really wanted to live in, so that’s where I’m focusing more on now.

Symptoms wise, my libido is good, it is active most days. Sensitivity is increased but climax quality is still pretty bad (but not numb.) It sometimes feels like there’s some connection that my brain is trying to make at climax, and it doesn’t quite happen. Like maybe 10% - it feels like there’s almost some kind of a misfire. Which is better than how it traditionally has been during PFS, which is no feelings of connection or anything like that, it just was what it was, which was nothing. I’m thinking that once I am settled in, things will improve in many areas and I’m on the right track.

[Cdsnuts]

So it’s been a little while since my last post, and it’s time for an update. This is the last week of my current job, and it can’t come soon enough. My boss was surprised that I wanted to leave and kept asking me if I was sure, etc but I felt no regret handing him the official resignation letter that is required for me to get my ~12 weeks of accrued vacation cashed out slowly over the next 12 weeks.

I am consumed with the apartment search and I’ll end up probably selling my car to a dealership (ugh) instead of privately but I will shop around over the phone, etc. I have some good apartment candidates but it’s harder coordinating that from +100 miles away, but I think it should be nailed down this weekend (fingers crossed.) And then it shouldn’t take too long to sell the car, hire movers, etc.

On August 1st I started a Super R Andro cycle that will last throughout August. Then I will go again through all of October, month off again, then December.

The gains I’ve made from the last cycle seem pretty real and have stuck with me, so it will be fun to see what gains I make from this cycle. I still have an entire untouched bottle for once this one runs out, and then I’m not sure if I’ll need another bottle after that or not. I definitely don’t intend to use the prohormones anymore once I’m at 100%. (Not sure how healthy they would be to use for the super long term.)

I have been getting horrible sleep most nights (4 to 5 hours) as I juggle the day job with my law firm. I stopped advertising weeks ago and still get clients trickling in so I am busy. Once I have everything settled and I have my new place, I will dial up the ads again and get cracking on that. Last night I got 8 hours of sleep and still felt exhausted in the morning; it will take time to get well-rested again. That will only help me recover better and faster, the lack of sleep is working against me and slowing things down, although I do feel like I could fully recover either way, it’s just miserable and unhealthy to not get enough sleep.

The area where I’m looking at living (I don’t want to say where so please don’t ask,) has a perfect spot nearby for sprinting, good gyms, and it’s close to a shared office type of setup where I could rent a super small office for meeting clients and working outside of my apartment. Also lots of nice restaurants and subway stations. So I’m excited and right now I’m just focusing on getting a suitable apartment - last weekend I checked out 5 apartments and realized which area I really wanted to live in, so that’s where I’m focusing more on now.

Symptoms wise, my libido is good, it is active most days. Sensitivity is increased but climax quality is still pretty bad (but not numb.) It sometimes feels like there’s some connection that my brain is trying to make at climax, and it doesn’t quite happen. Like maybe 10% - it feels like there’s almost some kind of a misfire. Which is better than how it traditionally has been during PFS, which is no feelings of connection or anything like that, it just was what it was, which was nothing. I’m thinking that once I am settled in, things will improve in many areas and I’m on the right track.

You certainly are. Good for you man! Always good to hear positive updates.

[LetsGo]

I moved to NYC.

My apartment is crowded with boxes of stuff that I need to unpack, organize, donate, and throw away. Tomorrow I will hopefully sell my car, the parking is as bad as I knew it would be and I can’t waste hours looking for a spot just to have it longer to try to sell it privately.

I feel unbelievably lonely and my anxiety is very high. I can only do a few things each day because I spend so much time meditating and breathing to try to keep this under control. I don’t regret coming down here. But I’m incredibly lonely. Meeting some friends on Saturday and I cannot wait…

I just hope it’s not too late for me to have a good life. I’m so sick with worry. I have to get internet and my apartment set up and then do my business activities. But man, I wish I could get some promising dates.

I’m really craving interaction but most of my friends are busy.

[Jado]

I moved to NYC.

My apartment is crowded with boxes of stuff that I need to unpack, organize, donate, and throw away. Tomorrow I will hopefully sell my car, the parking is as bad as I knew it would be and I can’t waste hours looking for a spot just to have it longer to try to sell it privately.

I feel unbelievably lonely and my anxiety is very high. I can only do a few things each day because I spend so much time meditating and breathing to try to keep this under control. I don’t regret coming down here. But I’m incredibly lonely. Meeting some friends on Saturday and I cannot wait…

I just hope it’s not too late for me to have a good life. I’m so sick with worry. I have to get internet and my apartment set up and then do my business activities. But man, I wish I could get some promising dates.

I’m really craving interaction but most of my friends are busy.

Man, I feel similar. I just moved from CA to AZ - missing friends/family. Also, in a downswing and anxiety has been through the roof. I'm sure the change (moving) isn't making it any easier. Hang in there, it will get better.

[LetsGo]

Man, I feel similar. I just moved from CA to AZ - missing friends/family. Also, in a downswing and anxiety has been through the roof. I'm sure the change (moving) isn't making it any easier. Hang in there, it will get better.

Thank you. Ironically my friends are here, so I should feel less lonely.

I am meeting some friends on Saturday and I can’t wait to see them.

I used to be able to chat with some friends on demand when feeling anxious but not anymore, so I don’t have the outlet I crave. It is so hard to regulate my anxiety, even though it is less than it used to be.

I have not worked out at all in over two months so obviously I am in a huge downswing. I need to sell my car tomorrow, set up my internet, get my business phone set up, unpack my core essential items, start throwing away / donating what I will never need, cancel my old gym, join a new gym, start going to the gym, set up my air conditioning bracket which requires a drill, set up my air conditioner (using the bracket so that it wouldn’t literally kill someone if the window opened,) start sprinting again, get a new virtual office for my business, get new stationary with new address, sign up for digital payment receipts, sign up for digital contract signature software, send out 300 letters, etc, etc. It’s a lot. I need to just do it one step at a time.

When things are completed I should have a clean and neat apartment, cool with AC in my bedroom, fans in my other room. Work station set up. Cooking stuff set up. No boxes in my way, no clutter.

Calls coming in a few per day. ~3 paying clients per week. ~$6,000 per week. PFS should improve. Go on dates. Meet someone good. Pursue a relationship. Enjoy the upswings with her and grow emotionally close. Hang out with friends and enjoy the city. That is what I want.

Instead I am surrounded by boxes with a narrow path in my apartment, no internet, business not set up at all, internet not set up yet, car getting tickets and costing me parking fees, anxious, ruminating, feeling overwhelmed, feeling lonely, worried I’m too old, etc.

So I know what I have to do but I have to find strength to do it. It will probably end up being only a few pieces of progress each day. And then over a few weeks I am up and running, whereas someone stronger would be all set up by now. But I just need to do what I need to do.