Originally Posted by
RickTheRuler
Your right CD, I was deff making assumptions. Everyone has their preference. It’s just who I’m around (ghetto parts of NY) I’m honestly not around white girls a lot so I don’t hear their side of things lol..
& about the confident thing... NO, driven yes, but confident no.. if I’m really looking at myself, I wasn’t.. the whole being a beast athletically thing was just overcompensation for lack of.. & id say I’m good looking yeah, other people have too, but it’s about me believing.. it’s a fucked complex when you really look at it.. I’ve had girls but I should have more success in that department: WOMEN don’t like us for the same reasons we like them.. looks are so low on their priorities you would be surprised . & we STILL fall into that vanity shit..
You’d be surprised. A lot of beastly dudes in the gym (or anything else) come from a place of loneliness & isolation, that’s where it’s created.. that’s where the fire comes from. I can attest to that.
I’m the guy who people wonder “how is HE not sure of himself? Look at him!!”
Despite me putting the work, not sure of myself..
I’m the guy who is good at something but does not believe it.. I’m all facets..I played baseball & as a pitcher threw absolute smoke (90 mph)but did not have the guts to want to pursue..
Then you have people on the other side of the spectrum that without all that have confidence.
You can clearly see it in my thread, where despite being so on point with everything & going hard on protocol, there are still questions in the back of my head.. this is something that affects me even outside the protocol before this whole thing happened. It’s a Life Hurdle for me..
This experience has allowed me to look in real deep man. Finding out a lot about myself.. your so obvious to everything pre pfs