I've had pfs from 23-24 my man so I get it. All I cared about was girls, friends, sports, music, and drugs. I'm a very free spirited, let life come to me, type of person naturally...but being that person won't get you to recovered from this. It sucks, but recovery won't just come to you as you live the same way.
I've had to re-invent myself as a very disciplined person to fight this thing. At first it was hard, but I'm embracing how its changing me to be a better person. You can absolutely get there too.
The sooner you can make this change, the sooner you will be healed.