Alchemical Recovery out of hell of PSSD after taking similar 5ar pharma drug

[Alchemy]

What organ supplements do you take?
What dosage?

I was just thinking of adding organs to my diet, they support hormones and supply many things including the MK4 I need.

I didn't take any organ supplements, but will order some in the future.

What I did take was beef liver, duck liver, chicken liver, beef heart (not at the same time, rotating them for variation and would eat 2-3 x a week) in the past and it seemed to ramp things up in the libido department.

The problem is I don't like the taste of organs, even though I should because my mother use to feed liver to us when we were children, but the taste is too much for me just a pussy when it comes to chopping down on the heart, brain and liver. , so plan on just getting the all in one grass fed organ supps which contains the heart, liver, pancreas and kidneys and take it twice a week according to the dosage recommendations.

Whether you gonna eat them or take them in supp form, best is to ensure they are grass fed. I'm actually in the process of forming my own organ supplement product so will let you guys know when I've done it and on for sale.

On another note, I'm waking up every morning with really stiff and sometimes uncomfortable erections. Why I say uncomfortable, because I'm not really feeling any sex drive or libido while it's on, it's just like my dick has a mind of it's own and wants to get hard just for the sake of it lol

I mean they feel like I've taken a large dose of cialis or viagra and then had priapism

Last night I woke up in the early hours of the morning, I wasn't even thinking lustful thoughts, and just had a really hard erection that was just there, and it seemed it wouldn't go down. I had to take my boxer shorts off, do deep breathing and mentally meditate it away.

I've been taking pine pollen every day along with rotating different herbs, and I thinking of lowering it down to half a teaspoon on the herbs cycling because I don't need anything that's going to pump up erections anymore, if anything I did something that's going to relax the blood vessels, because they are now far to stiff.

[Alchemy]

Had to start fasting again, my skin was starting to look quit bad again but will be juicing a lot more and giving my body a break from eating so much meat for a week or two.

Just at the end of a 24 hour water fast today and man the last few hours to the day are the most difficult. Every thing looks good. Got 2 more hours until bed time and can't wait to just sleep so I can start eating again in the morning

Would do a longer fast but can't afford to lose the muscle mass and strength and begin looking like the Christian Bale from the machinist. So I'm going to consign myself to do regular 1 day fasts, but will probably switch to juicing to get in the extra nutrients and minerals

Aiming to do a 2nd R-andro cycle in May but will go with the capsules

[Bankai9000]

You don't lose muscle during prolonged fasts. Otherwise we would die out as species xd Your metabolism actually goes up at days 3-5 days and probably starts slowing down after 2weeks or so. It does slow down tho pretty fast when we starve, aka eating below 1500kcal a day which is very different from fasting
Not much sense to be all weak and without muscles trying to find food lel. That's why people feel better than ever after 3-4days of fasting.
That's why the average person is skinnyfat, much food, not much fasting, even less movement^^. Dr Berry made a nice point that fasting + keto = autophagy, would probably fix wrinkles at a pace of 1% every 3 months. I find that actually pretty aspiring and that's where I wanna get to with a healthy omnivore diet + 2-3 prolonged fasts a year

[Alchemy]

You don't lose muscle during prolonged fasts. Otherwise we would die out as species xd Your metabolism actually goes up at days 3-5 days and probably starts slowing down after 2weeks or so. It does slow down tho pretty fast when we starve, aka eating below 1500kcal a day which is very different from fasting
Not much sense to be all weak and without muscles trying to find food lel. That's why people feel better than ever after 3-4days of fasting.
That's why the average person is skinnyfat, much food, not much fasting, even less movement^^. Dr Berry made a nice point that fasting + keto = autophagy, would probably fix wrinkles at a pace of 1% every 3 months. I find that actually pretty aspiring and that's where I wanna get to with a healthy omnivore diet + 2-3 prolonged fasts a year

Yeah I know I should have said losing size rather than muscle. I think it's after fat stores are completely depleted which is a long time for most before the body will go into starvation mode and start cannibalising on itself by eating through the muscle tissue. If I really wanted to I could do the 3-5 days water, but I need to be strong at this time got important assessments I need to be working on that I need energy for.

I don't know I'll see how feel in the morning and if I can bare another day or 2 but right now all I can think about is what I'm gonna eat for breakfast lol

[Alchemy]

Gonna have to stock up on food soon, shit is getting real over here in the uk as everyone is starting to panic and buy everything in the supermarkets over fear of the coronavirus and the city looking likely to be going under lockdown for 12 weeks

Chinese people are also getting beating up on the streets due to all the fear mongering. It's ridiculous how ignorant and backwards some people are over here

Fortunately I work from home, so don't have to commute and deal with the idiots panicking.

Whats funny is that the government's proactive solution message to the people while all this is going on is to wash your hands long enough while singing happy birthday twice lol.

[Alchemy]

Not doing too good guys

Tried having sex yesterday and couldn't get hard for the life of me and now suddenly not getting any erections when a few days ago they wouldn't stop coming lol. But I'm putting that down to coming off a fast and not eating any carbs that day

Good restful Sleep is still elusive, only melatonin at 5mg is helping me feel drowsy to dose off, but then only getting a few hours sleep so maybe I need to increase the dose now at night

Thinking of ordering a bathmate, to improve blood flow, because I notice now I'm not feeling any semen pump through the shaft of the penis even when I was getting rock hard erections so feel like I've just got a hard prop attached to my body lol

I'm still wondering if this is high/low estrogen, shbg or if free testosterone is low, because my ballsack is filled up with semen yet it doesn't seem to be getting through to the penis and not feeling any rush libido in my head/brain, which makes me question is if it's nerve or hormone issue

I still can't believe how well my mental cognition has improved, every who sees me comments how well I look and sound.

I remember slurring words, incomplete sentences and not able to pronounce long difficult words, but now it's all seamless and can even tell long story jokes without struggle.

But right now I'd rather be semi retarded and have my libido and erections back healthy then be fully cognisant and impotent lol

one thing this thing will never take is my sense of humour but then after saying that, one day I might wake up and find I develop some motor dysfunction where my jaw suddenly locks and can no longer laugh lol

[Alchemy]

Just had corona virus last week and beat it in 2 days so grateful I don't feel sick anymore.

Had my doctor do a proper more complete hormone panel blood test and got free testosterone, estrogen, LH, FSH, vitamin D, prolactin and SHGB results

SHGB came back at high but not over the limit, so did estrogen come back at a reasonable range at the higher end, free t was above average and the rest were all good numbers in normal range. Too lazy to type them all out.

so I'm not shutdown/suppressed and my pcp is insisting these newly ed problems are psychological

The only thing they say is that their concerned my cholesterol is actually high and was misinformed about it being low and that I'm at risk of developing a heart attack if I don't get it down. Which makes sense since I was chopping red meat every singe day lol. but really I'm more concerned I have a minor case of peroyne's or plaque build up or venous leak since when I do get erections i don't feel any semen going through the shaft hence no pleasure and very difficult to masturbate which I've stopped completely to let the penis heal.

I say peryonies because I feel hardness inside the tissue of the shaft when it is flaccid. There is a slight leaning at the tip of penis swaying towards the left but no abnormality or bend/lump in the shaft which I've seen with those who have peroynies and when erect my penis is straight but can only get erection when flaccid penis is point upwards towards my belly which is just really weird and doesn't erect when flaccid is pointed downwards towards leg, and I use to edge to porn real bad at times, so I'm not ruling out it being porn induced desensitisation.

For peace of mind, I'm going to see a urologist next week for a proper examination to rule anything physical out. I pray it isn't anything serious because the options for correction treatment for any penile injury/damage are really bleak. Had a panic attack last night durng sleep because of how terrified I was from researching peroynies disease and other penis damage shit.

What's really concerning is that I'm not really responding to anything now no matter what I put in my body or no matter how intense I exercise or fast, I don't feel any difference. I can push myself to the extreme lifting weights or doing HIT now and feel no adrenaline or rush in my head, which tells me the anhedonia is acute and makes me question if it's psychological since I am experiencing really weird sense of dissociation/depersonalisation where I'm not really engaged with my surroundings or people at all and there is absolutely no fluctuations in mood, completely detached from most things and appetite is mostly suppressed.

And this makes me think I could have caught a parasite which is wreaking havoc causing these weird dissociative symptoms along with inflammation

I feel like I'm in no man's land but I want to rule out everything physiological, so after the urologist does the test, I do one more stool test to see if there are any new pathogens that have developed because they can grow in the testes as well which can effect libido and penile function.

[Alchemy]

Here in England things are quickly getting more and more serious. The streets are becoming emptier and emptier by the day as the government cranks up measures to prohibit people from leaving their homes and it's like its the end of the world in supermarkets where most of them have limited food to buy, queues of people stretching to outside the shop with everyone's trolly's filled to the top with everything. Worst of all as of today they've closed EU borders so we won't be able to get food from outside the country.

So during this time while food is short I've decided is the perfect time to fast

Embarking on a 2-3 week fast from today, I've accepted that I will have to sacrifice weight and size Ive gained in the last 6 months. I don't have much choice, as my appetite is extremely low and don't have a clue what is causing this.

Anytime I eat food its making me feel sick and supplements are having little effect. This gives me a clue that my gut and system is overloaded and needs clearing out and need to get my cholesterol down.

The plan is to water fast for as long as my body can take it, the longest gone for me is a week so I'm hoping to surpass that and do at least 10 days before switching to juice fast and doing that for another week or 2 in order to fill up myself with antioxidants and minerals from the plants.

Then will switch back on paleo, use penise pump to improve blood flow, cycle herbs on and on then hopefully that would sort out erections which are hit and miss at the moment

If that doesn't work thenI will try a cycle of proviron but I think by that time I should be healed up with these sexual sides because the last time I had serious ed, a juice fast cleared it up but this time it feels different with this fear of peroynoies. But not gonna wait for referral to urologist to take action, I will find solution myself to fix it because it just seems I need more blood flow so my dick erects without swaying to left and when on command, rather than having a life of it's own.

[Alchemy]

Day 1 water fast almost over, and it's been too easy with absolutely no appetite which is unusual since I'm a big food enthusiast and usually chopping at the bit for food. These last few weeks had no apetite at all and favourite foods have tasted like average and felt no satisfaction .

I'm getting paranoid thoughts that I've got colon cancer because of this extreme loss of appetite, along with abdominal cramps, constipation and had blood in stool a few weeks ago.

Got an appointment with dr tomorrow so will request some tests to rule it out, but to be honest I don't really care if it is cancer. I was hoping the coronavirus would finish me off, but hopefully if it is cancer that will do the trick because big part of me is tired of fighting endless health battles and I'm really not scared of death, never have been and never will.

[Mineiro-up]

Come on man!!! There’s more than 50 issues that can cause blood in stool, and for us is very probable to be gut inflammation....the last thing it would be is cancer....

Question: will you keep the Herbs on you waterfast?