Originally Posted by
Outlaw
Officially a year since I crashed, it's crazy how this date evokes more emotion than my own birthday. At this time last year, I was completely decimated on all aspects, and genuinely thought my life was over.
But fuck dwelling on it, I feel like celebrating it. I made huge strides in the last year. The difference between February and September was astonishing. Yeah I took a lot of steps back with that B complex and that dentist but fuck it, I can come back to my September baseline. My body is still adjusting from the waterfast, but I am more motivated that ever to crush this thing.
I read Damn's post regarding the importance of managing stress, and I've been doubling down on breathing exercises and meditation. For the last week, no matter how bad my symptoms are, I've been living in the present, and enjoying small stuff rather than dwellling on memories or stressing over the future. I will keep it that way. What are my other choices? Die? Do nothing and hope? Fuck that, I'm all in with this shit.
Consider this my second introduction post. From now on, I will be coming here for questions or good vibes only. I made a bucketlist board in my room where everyday I write something I will do when this is over. Damn, when I recover I will be a danger for society. I'll be sipping gin tonics on a yacht with Victoria Secrets top models. My thread might be 100 pages long by the time I recover but I don't care. One day this thread will have a picture of me on that yacht, I swear. We'll see for the models.
Happy birthday PFS, I'm gonna knock you the fuck out