My first AAS Cycle

[tallstraw]

In my past I have done 3 cycles.
4 week PP TBOL Cycle- Gained 30lbs and held onto 20 of them.
8 week AM+AH Cycle- Gained a few lbs and recomped a little.
6 week trenevar+11 oxo- With my pristine clan eating on 2100 2600 clean calories a day alternating between carbs and no carbs on lifting and non lifting days. I realized nutrition really is the key. Because when i started eating like shit, the gains pissed away, even while on cycle. So the weight I cut, I lost, and bloated a little back to where i was. I was just much stronger.

Then my PCT time came and during it, they threw me on plane back to the US from Afgh. Which was a half assed PCT tryign to sneak things through customs. So I got back and lifted and everything was fine. Lost about 30lbs on my bench and 40 on my deadlift. Then I started partying more and pissed away my gains. i didnt feel right to begin with, but living that lifestyle didn't help. I stopped working out more and more to party. So I figured my PCT failed. I didn'tfeel right. I had my confidence and all. i just didn't feel optimized if that makes sense, like i felt precycle.

So I thought a low dosed Exem run would help. in the short run it did help. Then I completely tanked my levels and was back at square one, but even worse. it affected my sex life. So per Jelisej's excellent advice I layed off all hormonal products for like 3 months or so. In that time I had wrist surgery, and have been going to occupational therapy. In that time I had my values checked, and my test was at like 430 something. So it solidified that I didn't originally recover well, or what. I feel okay now though, I feel great. So they're probably much higher.

i have gotten sloppy. Not eating well, not lifting, and just generol piece of shittyness. I'm disgusted with myself. 2013 was supposed to be my year, and all ive done so far is piss it away with excuses, and more excuses. I have stayed about the same weight(gained a little). But have steadily replaced my muscle with fat. i have been watching what i eat soemwhat lately, and getting back into pt with the Army. So Im losing weight. it's not terrible, by average person standards. but by fitness standards its terrible. I am seriosuly disgusted with myself, and the point ive let myself get to. So 2 weeks ago I started pinning some strango test 2 cc's a week which is 700mg.

I don't care that I should wait to max my potential and all. i really don't I wanna get back to where i WAS, AND BETTER. I am motiviated and more dedicated than ever. I will show you guys. I am thinking of addding dbol for 3 weeks, then midway through, try adrol, and then the last 2-3 weeks try whichever did better for any last minute mass. I'm not that concerned with fat gain, although with my diet, I think i should be ablw to keep it to a slight or average rate for a bulk. I'll cut later on.

I would love diet critiques. Im mostly gonna go by macros, not by posting foods to eat daily. I'm gonna push this out atleast 16 weeks. Havent decided on intermitten HcG, or HMG 4 weeks before the end of my cycle. I have fertomid, and whatever the generic tomax is for PCT. As well as ID Exem on hand for estro sides, and PCT.

I am gonna post pics, and want the harsh truth, but hopefully i can take it and use it as motivation. I no longer drink. I have fun with my gf, and grow mEDICAL marijuana for her. As I am her caregiver. Its a passion I really enjoy, and keeps me busy. I will post pictures soon.

TL;DR Cliffs
Havent been around much
Disgusted with self
Gonna run a 16wk test cycle
More motivated and dedicated than ever
Would love critiques
Hope this doesnt remind anyone of Ippy lol