Originally Posted by
Cdsnuts
No. My recovery came very, very slowly over the course of years in incremental bits and pieces. I didn't have a blue print obviously, so there was a ton of trial and error. But because of the slow progress, everytime I got to a "new normal" I knew it was permanent. It felt permanent. I would stay there for awhile and then break into another level of healing, peeling off another layer of the onion so to speak, moving into another new normal. I made slow and steady progress like this until I made my recovery post. I did have three steps forward one step back experiences, but the general trend was always moving towards healing, so it didn't bother me because I knew it was just the ebb and flow of the healing process. I could see how someone who had a very quick up swing in healing and went from shot out to somewhat normal quickly could have these worries though. Simply because the way you were was so recent, so fresh in your mind. It took me so long to heal that by time I was done, most of those horrible thoughts of the hell I was in were a thing of the past. I was glad for this.
That being said though, I always kept a positive attitude. I don't know why given the circumstances, but I just KNEW I was going to beat it. I knew I was going to get better. There was nothing else on my mind but this. You need to just stay present. In the here and now, and don't think of the what ifs. Enjoy the way you are now. Don't think of how you were. There is no need to bring that past into your present. This is typically a good way to be with everything in life. The only thing any of us have is this moment.....right now. The past is done and the future isn't here yet. And when the future is here, it will be the present. Just keep doing what your doing in this moment now, and you will continue to go where you want.
And as you know, holosync is so good for this. I didn't have it when I was doing the bulk of my healing but most of those guys on that forum would have just dismissed it as new age tree hugging hippie shit. It's these same guys who are still miserable because they don't understand the power of their own minds. I know you do.
And btw, I continue to be amazed at the way I feel. I thought when I made that post, almost a year and a half ago, that I had arrived. I can tell you that I feel ten times better now then I did then. This isn't a regimen anymore, it's just a way of life. One I could not imagine living any other way. Just keep on it my man. You'll get there.