Thanks guys. I was kinda thinking that the TRT might improve it to some degree, some docs have said this is the case. Anyway the plastic surgery place where I am going has a contract to deliver services publicly as well which runs out April 1st so I might end up waiting til November (half the cost if I do it under public system).

TRT starts this Monday, barring any major hurdles like earthquakes or flash floods. Weekend, I ended up not trying to crash my hormones with any PHs and instead just did the bloodtest after a shitty day and night of no sleep. while waiting for the blood test i played games on my phone that stress me out, and i tried to think negative, weak thoughts. we shall see