My journey to the promised land

[Cdsnuts]

Absolutely, I'll be honest with you, the first time I saw your recovery post was in my initial two week, "let's see if I just recover normally" phase, and I thought "man, he really had to do a lot and the people at PH here say he still has to do it to maintain" and was hoping I didn't have to ever cross the bridge to find recovery. However, I'm almost glad I'm getting to experience this (don't get me wrong I'd trade it all to go back to 100% immediately in a heartbeat, who wouldn't?) because it's teaching me even more than I already knew before that you don't get worthwhile shit in life unless you work for it. And also I see why you continue to live this lifestyle even though you don't have to after recovering initially. If it brought you out of hell, and I know you were way worse off than I ever was, why would you not continue this to maintain optimal health in a normal life? The people that laugh about continuing to do it (or continue doubting your own recovery, as well as entropy's and English's) are the same people who when I'm out with friends now give me hell about not drinking. As if somehow your decisions affect their lives. I live MY life, not theirs, why the hell do they care?

People will use absolutely anything as crutch to justify why they are as they are, and that's exactly why they stay how they are. PFS or not, anything in life can be boiled down to that.

As I've said from the beginning when I read your posts....you have what it takes to get what you want. THIS is the attitude and outlook that is needed not only for beating PFS, but for accomplishing ANYTHING you want out of life. It's all in your hands. The outcome is completely dependent upon YOU, and no one else. When this is finally realized by those trying to make positive changes, it is a very powerful feeling.

What you bring up about other people is something worth mentioning. For some reason, some people feel threatened by the decisions of others because it puts their own actions into the forefront of their minds. They see you doing something good for yourself and they get guilty...it's as if they think your actions are judging their actions, which couldn't be further from the truth. I get it all the time. When people see the way I eat at say, a barbecue, when I'm taking my burgers or hot dogs (yes, I eat them....lol) directly on the plate with no bun, or on top of a huge serving of greens and salad, ultimately there is some type of comment. I dont give a fuck about what anyone else eats, or does for that matter if it's not effecting me, and they shouldn't either. Funny enough it's always the the people that have completely let themselves go and have given up. Don't feel threatened about what's on my plate because you know it should be what's on yours.

Just keep at it and you will be surprised how good you can actually feel on a daily basis without taking drugs...never stop. It keeps getting better and better. Even still to this day when I think I'm completely at the top of my game, I will periodically get another boost which far surpasses anything I thought was possibly. I don't HAVE to do anything to maintain. I CHOOSE to keep doing it and for very good reason.

And....even if you had to do all of these things to maintain a healthy sex life and life in general....WHY WOULDN'T YOU?

You'll get there. Never stop.