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-have stopped the ai with mixed results, some negative physical & emotional changes but also a few positive mental/emotional ones. Gyno is getting worse, more muscle wasting, more hip fat, chubbier face and more of overthinking but I'm also able to enjoy things more now and I have at least some of my personality back. I think I've pretty much accepted that my growth has been stunted now and there's nothing I can do with it, hopefully packing on muscle after I recover can make up for my awkward adolescant/feminine(?) body shape. That reminds me, is it safe to go on trt or other steroids after recovering? Trying low dose masteron when I was doing self trt, before I knew I had this & thought I just had low t, led to a second crash which made all my symptoms worse. I needed trt before this and will probably need it after but I don't want to crash myself again.

-Did 2 & 3 day water fasts consecutively a couple of weeks ago (was meant to be 5 but fucked up and had mexican at the end of day 2) and have been doing intermittant fasting (2 meals a day, one for breakky one for lunch). Have been gluten/dairy/soy free and am doing a paleo-esque diet with only meat/fruit/safe veg although It's not strict paleo as I have not excluded green peas or chickpeas since they're a good source of fibre which I would otherwise struggle to get. I also sometimes have other non paleo foods that I don't get bad inflammation from.

-Have changed gyms to one with a sauna because i believe heavy metals could be a problem for me, since the herb that fucked me up (gotu kola) plus a couple I took before that are known to hyperaccumulate them, and heavy metal toxicity is linked to gyno. Idk if it's otherwise beneficial since I feel pretty bad & worn out for a day or so after using it, not sure if this is from moving heavy metals around or if its just more stress than my body can handle. I've only been weight training twice a week with two cardio days since It seems like doing more than that is wearing me out wayyy too much, even with this small volume I feel like dirt for a long while after training, although I think the cardio is helping alot.

-I've also been keeping up with metta/loving kindness meditation aswell as mindfulness, 30 min each of both a day, I think these have both helped me alot and allow me to be more at peace and fuction better. I'm struggling with the fact that I'm stuck on the sidelines of life while my friends are all genuinely enjoying themselves, making mad gains and starting to date/fuck decent looking chicks, although I am happy with them I'm still coming to terms with being a bystander.

-As for supplements I've been taking basic vitamins, s.boulardii, PQQ (helps I think?), tongkat, DAA, and some tribulus although I've found that higher doses of tribulus actually make me feel quite a lot worse, will probably start a rotation soon. Is the whole dht prohormone cycle thing really necessary? It seems like stuff that increases dht makes me feel worse with masteron causing a second crash and high dose tribulus making me feel terrible.

-I need to remember to stay away from places like propeciahelp/solvepfs completely. The rampant negativity and doom & gloom in those places infects me like a fuckin disease man.
I have the same shitty weight issue..Just gets worse and worse..Have gained over 40lbs of just fluid like filled tissue around stomach, waist and love handles..Even thighs and upper biceps are a lot more fat..Low energy coupled with this weight gain and mental side effects is like a reciepe for death for myself..Its horrible condition that there seems to be not even any relief for let a lone a cure..