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[Ridd]

Update: Been on the herbs for a little.

I feel really good recently. Sexually I would even say I've come back 20-25%. I can get erections without stimulation (takes a crap ton of concentration and the erections arent 100% [more like 60]) but thats better than the 0% about a week ago. I feel more focused and can work more.

Also, I remember the past few months the 50 lb weights would feel REALLY heavy. I chalked that up to me letting up on my regime but now I dont know... I curled 50 lbs free weights yesterday during arm day and pushed out a solid rep of 12. In good form. I would not have been able to do that before today...

On another note, my MW seems to be on vacation. They have been missing recently even tho i feel way better sexually... Anyone have insight on this? I hear sometimes they leave and come back?

Also, I'm getting mild ball ache again... is that them coming back online? They dont seem to have shrunk (in fact they seem a little bigger recently). Thoughts?

congrats on the progress, you should only be feeling better, but remember when you do go down, an even stronger upswing is ahead. never forget that.

as far as sexual stuff, it's gonna be weird and sporadic for a while. some days you'll get MW, somedays you might not. some guys never get it back but they recover otherwise. my MW has been back lately, but it's no longer that powerful "can't even pee in the morning" kind of boner that you may be used to. I've noticed that the more healthy I am and the more the herbs are working the more often I have chubs going on through the day. I've been getting spontaneous erections lately which is awesome, awesome progress.

as a side note, I've been super horny lately after starting my first cycle of herbs. I felt like utter shit yesterday. near crashing level. or maybe even flu level? I haven't been "sick" in the traditional sense in so long I kind of forget what it's like. I can't imagine it's anything other than herbs, I took maka the day before and woke up horny as shit. anyways, I slept it off and today i'm feeling pretty god damn good.

basically, it's a crap shoot. I sometimes get ball-ache and I don't ever really think it's a bad thing for some reason, but honestly I have no fucking clue. we're gonna be way more aware of that shit because of our circumstances so I'd say don't worry about it, no harm in looking at it as a good thing.

one thing that I feel compelled to tell you because of your situation, I did a lot of research on this stuff (I mean my dick was broken, pretty important stuff to research,)
a lot of studies conclude that the more blood flow you have going through mr johnson downstairs, the healthier it will be. I read some studies about guys being outright cured of ED from taking cialis/viagra because their dick was finally getting a healthy flow of blood.

if you're not getting erections often enough, I'd say it's worth getting a pump, or at least masturbating often- however I wouldn't go to completion. just edge. there's a lot of hormones moving around when you come, better save that energy and keep that balance in tact. I always kind of feel like shit after I blow a load, and every time I've crashed hard has been after jizzing. I know this is super personal but I think it's necessary for you to know. I get the most benefits from the protocol after not busting for long periods of time, although I usually only make it around 10 days before it's all I can think of. I think no-fap is a super useful method for all dudes, and ESPECIALLY for PFSers.

so yeah, expect lots of weird shit going on, as long as you're making progress, it's all gravy, baby.

[Sploicers]

Can I just say I fucking love this site? Can't think of anywhere else where I could talk about this shit and feel completely comfortable.

Anyhoo-

I am psyched to here about the random erections! Thats huge! Good for you man (super jealous). Can I ask your current regiment?

Its awesome to hear that im not alone with this pain. I honestly thought I might crash again and got myself in this whole anxiety thing. I feel fine though. One thing I have noticed that has made me feel great, my dick feels more full just laying around. Its not like a piece of straw anymore. It feels thick even naturally. Thats got me way more excited than it should.

So something about the feeling like shit part. I felt AMAZING yesterday before my 'mini-crash' of ball ache. Super horny. So maybe its that rubber banding we see in people who are recovering? Seems we had the same thing going on.

I know some kids get ball ache from puberty, and its apparently the testes expanding. Most people who have pain get it from atrophy but thats only because most men arent having theirs grow when they are older...Not sure.

[Hulk Smash]

Update: Been on the herbs for a little.

I feel really good recently. Sexually I would even say I've come back 20-25%. I can get erections without stimulation (takes a crap ton of concentration and the erections arent 100% [more like 60]) but thats better than the 0% about a week ago. I feel more focused and can work more.

Also, I remember the past few months the 50 lb weights would feel REALLY heavy. I chalked that up to me letting up on my regime but now I dont know... I curled 50 lbs free weights yesterday during arm day and pushed out a solid rep of 12. In good form. I would not have been able to do that before today...

On another note, my MW seems to be on vacation. They have been missing recently even tho i feel way better sexually... Anyone have insight on this? I hear sometimes they leave and come back?

Also, I'm getting mild ball ache again... is that them coming back online? They dont seem to have shrunk (in fact they seem a little bigger recently). Thoughts?

I wouldn't worry about the ache; its probably receptors and nerves having the testosterone replenished.
Its similar to how muscles ache when they are increasing in density and strength.
Its the logical conclusion, as everything in the protocol is to restore our true vigor.

[Ridd]

Can I just say I fucking love this site? Can't think of anywhere else where I could talk about this shit and feel completely comfortable.

Anyhoo-

I am psyched to here about the random erections! Thats huge! Good for you man (super jealous). Can I ask your current regiment?

Its awesome to hear that im not alone with this pain. I honestly thought I might crash again and got myself in this whole anxiety thing. I feel fine though. One thing I have noticed that has made me feel great, my dick feels more full just laying around. Its not like a piece of straw anymore. It feels thick even naturally. Thats got me way more excited than it should.

So something about the feeling like shit part. I felt AMAZING yesterday before my 'mini-crash' of ball ache. Super horny. So maybe its that rubber banding we see in people who are recovering? Seems we had the same thing going on.

I know some kids get ball ache from puberty, and its apparently the testes expanding. Most people who have pain get it from atrophy but thats only because most men arent having theirs grow when they are older...Not sure.

same dude, a lot of much needed support here.

this is exactly why I try to keep reminding you about the ups and downs, the inevitable bad and good. it freaked me out for a while until I accepted it as normal. we're so damn fragile right now that we just gotta take it as easy as possible. I even stopped going to the gym and just use my dumbbells at home for easy exercise. the key is just staying the most happy, putting the most good in your body and minimizing anything potentially stressful. for me, working out in small amounts is ok, but if I go every day for an hour like I used to, I would definitely burn out quick and end up doing harm.

for sure the rubber banding, that's a good way to put it. associate that shitty feeling with an inevitable rise back up to feeling better, don't let it get to you.

as for my regiment right now I've been using pine pollen powder, ginkgo, thyroid support (this makes me feel pretty great) and ashwaghanda, and just last week I've introduced trib, maca, shilajit, noni, he shou wu, and I plan on getting more herbs this week.

for diet, stick to the protocol of course, biggest thing for me that I don't see others really talking about is proportion. My body is much happier with many small meals throughout the day, maybe eating every 2-3 hours, but very small. I'm used to binge eating huge meals and gaining muscle, so I'll often over eat and it will take A LOT out of me. it's super strange. even since I've crashed I've become super hypoglycemic and can barely tolerate many carbs. this is probably one of the few big stressors I have left that I need to really clear up before I'll make a full recovery. I'm just so addicted to eating big but I know my body isn't on the same page as me. I really think it's important to find your natural resting body weight, which for most guys is a lot lower than what they are, unless you're naturally big. mine is probably between 150-160 but I've been at 175-185 for a while, and still sort of eat like that.

funny thing is i'm super slim and I appear as in being really good shape, but I physically can't get over binge eating. If I buy any sort of chips, chocolate, candy, whatever kind of sugars, I will always eat it within a day, I just can't fucking control myself lol, I just can't buy it.

anyways, I have no clue if you can relate to that but I think that's the last key to my recovery, just controlling my portions into a healthy size, which I don't think the average american really gets.

I've also had some weird prostate and ball tinges, but I've always had an inkling that they are a positive thing as they're usually accompanied by more responsiveness sexually.

[Durantia37]

same dude, a lot of much needed support here.

this is exactly why I try to keep reminding you about the ups and downs, the inevitable bad and good. it freaked me out for a while until I accepted it as normal. we're so damn fragile right now that we just gotta take it as easy as possible. I even stopped going to the gym and just use my dumbbells at home for easy exercise. the key is just staying the most happy, putting the most good in your body and minimizing anything potentially stressful. for me, working out in small amounts is ok, but if I go every day for an hour like I used to, I would definitely burn out quick and end up doing harm.

for sure the rubber banding, that's a good way to put it. associate that shitty feeling with an inevitable rise back up to feeling better, don't let it get to you.

as for my regiment right now I've been using pine pollen powder, ginkgo, thyroid support (this makes me feel pretty great) and ashwaghanda, and just last week I've introduced trib, maca, shilajit, noni, he shou wu, and I plan on getting more herbs this week.

for diet, stick to the protocol of course, biggest thing for me that I don't see others really talking about is proportion. My body is much happier with many small meals throughout the day, maybe eating every 2-3 hours, but very small. I'm used to binge eating huge meals and gaining muscle, so I'll often over eat and it will take A LOT out of me. it's super strange. even since I've crashed I've become super hypoglycemic and can barely tolerate many carbs. this is probably one of the few big stressors I have left that I need to really clear up before I'll make a full recovery. I'm just so addicted to eating big but I know my body isn't on the same page as me. I really think it's important to find your natural resting body weight, which for most guys is a lot lower than what they are, unless you're naturally big. mine is probably between 150-160 but I've been at 175-185 for a while, and still sort of eat like that.

funny thing is i'm super slim and I appear as in being really good shape, but I physically can't get over binge eating. If I buy any sort of chips, chocolate, candy, whatever kind of sugars, I will always eat it within a day, I just can't fucking control myself lol, I just can't buy it.

anyways, I have no clue if you can relate to that but I think that's the last key to my recovery, just controlling my portions into a healthy size, which I don't think the average american really gets.

I've also had some weird prostate and ball tinges, but I've always had an inkling that they are a positive thing as they're usually accompanied by more responsiveness sexually.

If it's not giving you problems, I wouldn't stress about it, but gingko is estrogenic fyi.

[Ridd]

good to know

[Sploicers]

I just got back my blood test. Testosterone is sitting at 350... Range is from 249-800. Doctor tried to tell me thats totally normal. Wasn't buying it. Considering my age and workout regime I would definitely expect it to be higher.

Hey at least it gives me room to improve!

I am feeling slowly better everyday on the update side. The newest thing thats come back is my aggression. I am extremely competitive, to a point where its probably bad and get insanely angry if I get beat (not outwardly, but inwardly), I FINALLY felt anger again this weekend. Granted it was in video games, but it was there! Felt like my old self, and i laughed afterwards.

I definitely feel the most normal in the mornings and it starts to wear off during the day... Could that be the herbs? Does everyone feel this? I am wondering if I am currently taking something that negatively affects me. If its normal I wont change the regime though.

[Durantia37]

I just got back my blood test. Testosterone is sitting at 350... Range is from 249-800. Doctor tried to tell me thats totally normal. Wasn't buying it. Considering my age and workout regime I would definitely expect it to be higher.

Hey at least it gives me room to improve!

I am feeling slowly better everyday on the update side. The newest thing thats come back is my aggression. I am extremely competitive, to a point where its probably bad and get insanely angry if I get beat (not outwardly, but inwardly), I FINALLY felt anger again this weekend. Granted it was in video games, but it was there! Felt like my old self, and i laughed afterwards.

I definitely feel the most normal in the mornings and it starts to wear off during the day... Could that be the herbs? Does everyone feel this? I am wondering if I am currently taking something that negatively affects me. If its normal I wont change the regime though.

I feel good in the morning, bad during the day, and the best after 8pm or so. Not sure why.

[K8668B]

These doctors are scumbags for telling you your test levels are normal. Same with mine. Sorry, just had to rant. Keep doing what you're doing. I find docyors useless these days. Just go by how you feel. That's what I do. I don't even care about the numbers.

[27&Scared]

I feel good in the morning, bad during the day, and the best after 8pm or so. Not sure why.

Cortisol levels?