Hi guys

Last 2 days have sucked. Still getting anxiety and the sinking feeling in my stomach when I think about taking these pills. Sometimes actually feel like crying but never do, usually just daydream about having a time machine and going back and stopping myself from taking them.

I'm tempted to seek out some kind of counsellor or therapist to be honest. Anyone ever tried this?

Also been back to obsessively researching PFS - I wish there was a way to 100% say for sure if someone has it or not. I also started taking cialis/tadalafil again just to try and take my mind of it. It's so weird, I feel amazing after I take a tadalafil pill, it can last a long time. It's only supposed to have an "up to 36 hours" effect but I can get benefits for longer. I get the same good effect whether I cut it into a 2.5mg dose or a 20, doesn't seem to make a different. I just feel great on it - can masturbate 3+ times a day with no fear of if I'm going to start panicking after I get an erection. Does anyone else take this and have the same reaction? Is cialis supposed to work at all for PFS people?

Changes I need to make and what's next: STOP researching pfs all the time, I spend hours a day on it. It's emotionally taxing. Started re-introducing some fish into my diet after 2 years of vegetarianism, going to add some organic meats too. Androhard transdermal on the way, as well as some liquid ashwagandha. Going to take a 24hr cortisol saliva test to see if my anxiety is being caused by high cortisol, if so I am going to my doctor.

I want to do the juice feast but it's a bit difficult at the minute. I want to try and get on this next month. But sugar is almost completely gone from my diet now.