Originally Posted by
Antoloch
Hi everyone,
Here's an update for the past 2 weeks. Last week I actually felt really good, sex drive was good and (TMI warning) I was getting erections and masturbating to imagination and non-porn pictures (trying to give up porn). Felt like everything was great and I was over it. Morning wood is still hit or miss, but I notice that there's a brief period after I wake up where if I think about something that turns me on it's very easy to get an erection.
And now we'll fast forward to last Friday. I decided to go out drinking with some people from work. It was only 4 pints of fairly mild beer but I reacted horribly. Vomited for an hour just after it, couldn't stand up without falling to the side, awful awful reaction. Had the hangover before going to sleep and waking up since the drinking was at lunch time. Got home with a hideous headache but decided to watch some porn and test how my response was (TMI warning 2). Erection was fine, masturbated normally.
Saturday morning - THE WORST ANXIETY EVER. Stone cold, but sweaty hands and feet. shaking, shivering, hopelessness. Lasted all day Saturday, and all day Sunday. The absolute worst anxiety ever, can't stop thinking about how much I regret taking these fcking pills. It was like constantly being in fight or flight. (TMI warning 3) used porn twice on Saturday night, masturbated normally both times. It's becoming a thing where I do this to test myself and need CONSTANT reassurance that my boners are working, multiple times a day I need to make sure my dick is working. Why the fck am I masturbating to porn ok but not getting morning wood??
Now it's Monday morning and I'm back at work so I have a distraction for the anxiety. Man I need to get in control of this, my mind is absolutely fcked up. Right now pills wise I'm just taking vitamin D3 regularly, haven't had herbal AIs or cialis in ages. I'm thinking of starting my androhard cycle this week. Idk if this has been just a horrible physical reaction to drinking or if that has just bought a lot of emotional baggage up