Hey blackkey,
Thanks for your compliments & I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through the same shit.
To first answer your question – there were periods where I’d shoot straight blanks or like a sad, measly drop of jizz, even after not wanking it for a week. That has resolved itself & I’m back to blowing chicks minds and filling socks. Mostly filling socks.
I am taking the herbs again & following the protocol, less some cold showers, meditation, and some breathing exercises. They’re important, I should be doing them more often, working on it. Also, I can’t attribute any form of my recovery to one thing, so don’t expect to start the herbs and your semen to come back. Cover all your bases and move on.
To you and everyone else who might read this (sorry too for using this as a launch pad for my rant):
I’m not going to go into where I’m at symptom wise or what % recovered I am. Truth is, I don’t really know & I’m not trying to reach some retrospective baseline of health anymore. What I am doing is trying to live the rest of my life to it’s fullest while savoring all of the things that I can still enjoy today. I’ve stopped viewing my body as broken and started viewing it for what it is – a miraculous, beast of a machine that is still living despite all of the hits it’s taken, including PFS. If any of you think you’ll ever attain perfect health and maintain it too, think again. Very few people make it through this life unscathed. Roll with the punches and make the most of an amazing gift, however painful or meaningless it might be to you.
That is NOT me saying you won’t recover, it’s me telling you to stop holding yourself to expectations of perfect health. Your energy is better spent elsewhere and I think you’ll find whatever respite you’re looking for when you stop looking down the rabbit hole you find yourself in now.
A bit of a rant, but I’m pissed at myself. I made a point a few months ago to leave all of this behind. My boy @
Turnover25 came to this decision too on his own accord. I think anyone who has truly recovered learns this at some point along the way. Heed the advice of those that came before you: develop a plan, set it and forget it, and leave this shit behind. It’s really hard, but every time you resist the urge to do more research or visit a forum, you are taking a step in the right direction.
I came here to see if anyone was talking about Long COVID and that was a mistake. It was a step in the wrong direction for me. Nonetheless, to leave all you with an unnessecary bit of hope: people, including doctors, are coming down with what mirrors PFS/CFS/and many other undetectable, chronic diseases on a scale never before seen. A lot of research and progress is going to be made in then next decade that will illuminate what we’re dealing with and resolve it. CD might even be awarded a fucking Nobel peace prize for discovering a treatment protocol 20 years prior.
In the meantime, do the protocol, live your life without fear, and when you come out of this and recover, look back with pride at what you were able to accomplish despite all of this, and look forward with gratitude for everything you still have. You don’t want to look back with any regret for the time you wasted reading this forum or others when you could have been out doing something awesome instead.
Also, just read Dune. Great book. Fear is the mindkiller. Lookup that quote & embrace its philosophy. Read that book. Read more books. Veering off track now. Take care of yourselves. Wear a fucking mask. Lean into the pain. You will recover if you follow the protocol AND divorce yourself from PFS.
You won’t be hearing from me for a long time, if ever.
Happy thanksgiving you turkeys.
Ratchet