Originally Posted by
JoeP26
Slept ok. Got to sleep around midnight and woke up around 4:45am. Had bad dry mouth and felt thirsty. Drank a lot of water, took some mag. and potass., and then went back to sleep for another hour. Woke up around 6am, took 3mg 5a-DHP, and went back to sleep. Woke up at 8am, took my herbs, and planning on taking a rest day today because I have been non-stop going and going with physical activity and sometimes you just need rest afterwards. On another note, one thing I hate about niacin over niacinamide is that it makes your body burn and turn red so bad for about an hour or two. Burning bad and so red right now as I type this. Might need to walk this off. This is intense.
Edit (10am): Ok. We good. Redness and burning subsiding. So, as I was saying, I slept ok but not consistent. I'm drained, tired, and am just going to relax. Mood-wise, I'm ok. Just down in the dumps because it feels like things in the brain are so bad that it's not fixable, never feel like my old self again, and I'll be one of those guys who is here 6 years from now in my 30s having tried everything and still going through it. I'm in my 20s and already wasted the first half of that decade obsessing over hair and hiding away from the world like a recluse. Missed out on so much that I took for granted and now I have no choice but to miss out on it all. It sucks and I'm sure a lot in here can relate.
Update (3:10pm): Depressive feeling is mildly hitting me. On top of that, the chronic "fear of everything around me" feeling is bad. I had it yesterday too. Doesn't matter what I do. I can't shake it. Just wish there was something to make me feel good and at peace. On top of that, muscle weakness is bothering me today. Mostly in my legs. Doesn't matter how much I exercise them, they don't strengthen. And ringing ears.
Update (4:40pm): Today is just bad. I guess I hit a crash. Not like it was in the beginning but I feel like the earth is moving under me, my ears are ringing, I'm confused, weak, my mood has been depressive, my head throbs, my interest in anything is severed, and my hands and legs are cold again.