Sharing my journey with you all - Blackkey

[blackkey96]

I took the drug 1mg/day for 18 days. I dropped it because i couldn't get it up at all once. Two weeks after quitting, i was getting spontaneous erections back, but i crashed right after.
Right now, my symptoms are
1. Low (no) libido,
2. ED (can only maintain an erection with stimulation),
3. No pleasure during orgasm and very little ejaculate (like 1/10th of what it used to be).
4. I also developed a curvature on my penis, going to see the urologist for that, hoping its nothing serious
5. Penis just feels "thinner"
6. Very very mild brain fog. Improved a lot since I stopped. Was 9/10 before but now its like 2/10
7. Breathlessness while i'm asleep...usually connected to weird dreams.
8. Voice is flat
9. Don't feel as centered and confident as I was before, looking forward to life and all

Noticeably, my nocturnal erections/morning wood have been rather regular and gradually stronger every day, which I am looking at as a positive sign. But that's obviously not a solution.

Since this is my 6th week off the drug, and recovery is usually 3-6months naturally, i am hoping for a miracle. But I am also prepared to get into this regimen right after the 2 month mark. So basically, in 3 more weeks.
Additional info: I got my bloodwork done a few days ago, my serum testosterone came out as 537 ng/dl, and my estradiol came out as 17.9 pg/ml. Both, the nurse said, are in "normal range".
An additional note: I have regularly been going to the gym 4 times a week for more than 2 years.

Just had these lingering questions:
1. Can I continue the same gym routine I've had and just up the weights? Or should I match it exactly as the protocol? My current routine is as follows:
Shoulder: Dumbbell Shrug, Seated Rear Lateral Dumbbell Raise, Cable Face pulls, Dumbbell Front Raise, Side Lateral Raise
Legs: Leg Extensions, Calf Raise, Leg Curl, Squats, Romanian Deadlift
Chest: Pushups, Dumbbell Fly, Chest Dip, Dumbbell Bench Press, Rope Triceps Push Down
Back/Bi: Bicep Curls, Pull ups, One Arm Dumbbell Row, Standing Bicep Cable Curl, Lat Pulldown
2. Do I HAVE to opt for "Carb Backloading"? I can easily cut out carbs/bread etc, but is the backloading part necessary for recovery?

Thank you for reading! I will be regularly updating this forum!