PFS similar PSSD sufferer - Gomesgame's log

[Gomesgame]

Hi all - 1st post, gonna be long

I’m a brazilian 23 male suffering from PSSD after taking antidepressants for 2 months (June - August 7’) so right now i’m off for 4 months and have a lot of symptoms with no improvement, and a lot of symptoms similar to PFS. I CANT FUCKIEN BELIEVE I DID THIS FOR WOMEN'S ISSUES AND BECAME A LIMPER AT 23!!!!!!!
So I engaged in PFS community to search for recoveries and their protocols to make my own plan to get out of it (and something tells me I will). I avoid now PSSDForum because I think that there’s too much the logic from curing it by “rebalancing” the brain with silver bullets and it annoys me a lot and I don’t believe it, since i guess it’s in fact a cascade resulted by endocrinal disruption in every case and thats why our syndrome is quite similar.

My symptoms are:

- Short sleep (first 2 months i could only sleep 2-3 hours per night. Now it’s normal 7-8h but its strange.
- Insomnia
- Emotional Flatness
- Anhedonia
- Muscle wastage
- Facial fat loss
- Weak bones
- Poor digestion (diarrhea/constipation)
- Lack of oil in hair and face
- Thinned hair all over the body
- Hairloss all over the body
- Less sweat
- No body odor
- Slow wound healing
- Massive testicular shrinkage (~30% of the size)
- Penis shrinkage and wrinckles
- Penis and testes are cold and pale sometimes
- No libido (I was the horniest creature in the world)
- Premature ejaculation
- Erection is hard to achieve and maintain, but i can get like 90%
- My glan doesnt fill while hard
- Genital numbness
- Can’t feel alcohol booze
- Mild brain fog
- Maybe lowered body temperature, but didn’t test yet

I’m posting it just to create a log and begin some contact here. Also to help me plan my steps to recovery, which are:

- Diet (I’ll start this January 10’ because you know, year ending and a lot of parties and meetings etc etc)
- I’m having an ortomolecular nutritionist alongside me on this journey to guide my diet
- Don’t know if I’m gonna start with a fast because i lost a lot of mass and fat already (I was muscly for all my life and now I’m a skinny mofo)
- My plan is to eat paleo diet with a lot of veggies and meat. Cut sugar completely and do low carb.
- Take spurilina, chlorella and bone broth daily while on recovery to keep my GI system on top
- Take fermented foods and Glutamine to help my gut and keep it working to its fullness
- Take Vit C, Vit D, Magnesium Threonate, Calcium and fish oil daily
- Berberine to help heal my gut wall - I think its giving me diarrhea but I won't give up on it since it looks very promising
- Try to cut coffee and alcohol to zero (I don’t know if i will in fact, i’m really addicted to coffee and have a lot of parties so maybe keep alcohol once by week but keep it in control)
- Won't take ANY pharmaceutical EVER in my life. Shame on them!

- Exercise: sprints 2x/week with small muscles training; weight lifting 2x/week with big muscles training ; calisthemics 2x/weekends
- Meditation daily (Wim Hof method 2x/day and Visualization Meditation or Auto-Hypnosis before bed)
- Cold Showers 2x daily (already doing it but only once per day)
- Sun my boys and body daily when sun is present
- Cut back masturbation for max 2x/week
- Natural cosmetical products only (Shampoo / deodorant / soaps)
- Reading “You’re the placebo” right now - honestly I think it maybe only works for anxiety / depression kind of illnes, don't know if it can help endocrinal mess

- Sleep at minimum 8hrs/day (I’m already doing this, but I sleep after 12 PM everyday)

- For T herbs, i’m gonna cycle with Pine Pollen; Tongkat; Tribulus and Maca 2 days per week each one. I dont have the enough cacife to buy 7 since i'm already struggling with aqll the other costs (supps, diet, nutritionist, cosmetics, etc) I'm a humble musician
- Citruline and Creatine daily whilst recovery

I thinks that’s it. I’m gonna honor this protocol religiously for minimum 2yrs and if it brings me nowhere i’m gonna stop and honestly i don’t know what to try next (maybe some bad things). Lately I’ve been more positive with all this shit because I can see it’s very much reversible opposing what most PH (and PSSD guys think), but some days I find me lacking a lot of hope and anyways I’m kinda always obsessed with everything that’s happening. I spend almos 90% of the day reading this forum or re-reading recoveries, which is better but not healthy though.

I would like some opinions around my plan for this journey, and some recommendations, annything to add or remove, advices if any of this supps can crash me, any idea of what could be happening by my symptoms, who knows, this shit is bizarre and everything is to supect.

Btw I like the positivity and support on this forum, very glad I'm here