Don't ever take kratom then, first time I took it (a bit too much) I sat down in my couch, being perfectly happy just staring at my walls for 2 hours lmao.
Now that u mention drinking, I have been drinking fairly often just before I got hit with this downswing as a social lubricant with this girl I've been seeing. Alcohol probably still doesn't agree with me. Wouldn't mind never drinking again if it wasn't for my social anxiety.