Originally Posted by
lastnoirking87
2 weeks sor far on this upswing, and holding steady it seems. As of the last week, libido is constant and pretty strong (anywhere from, say, 80%-90% of normal). Feels like a new baseline has been reached on the sexual symptoms. Premature ejaculation is becoming less and less of an issue, and maintenance is steadily improving as well. Also taking closer to normal time to get an erection. There are more and more instances of normal or nearly-normal sexual functioning now. Brain-penis connection feels like its returning to normal as well.
There are concomitant improvements in the mental department happening as well, aside from just libido. My brain is sharper and quicker on a consistent basis lately. I honestly underestimated how much of an impact this had on my mental functioning when I first began logging my progress. Emotions, memory recall, clarity of sensory stimuli, everything that it takes to be a normally functioning healthy human, basically, is feeling more and more normal with time.
While I'm not even at recovery status yet, I can just feel how amazing life will be once I officially reclaim my overall health and put the downswings behind me, and I'm basically drunk on the promise of reaching that down the line. To consistently feel this clear and optimized (well, actually more so once the finish line is reached) on a daily basis for the rest of my life is the most tantalizing prospect I can imagine.
Physically, I feel like I'm 15 or something, but better, because my strength and overall physical fitness is far greater than it was at that age. Energy levels are about that of me at 15, however. It's hard to really put into words, but this isnt the feeling of being hopped up on speed or propped up by a pharmaceutical. It's the feeling of everything functioning optimally. I got to sleep and wake up like this.
The more improvements I notice, the more driven I am to strictly adhere to this lifestyle, and the more happy I am to do so.
Anyway, the long in the short of it is, I'm having more good days than bad now, upswings are lasting longer, and new baselines are being reached. The idea of returning to my old normal self is not the goal or the desire anymore, as I actually feel so much better than that in many ways already, so the drive here is to move forward into a new, optimized version of myself.