I don't understand you.
You've made posts about how great you're feeling and how this is working so good, etc. And then in the same breath, you make a post and say everything is shit and nothing is working? Which is it? Because it can't be both.
You know it doesn't make any sense. You're either very high, or very low.
And, you need to do something to quiet your mind so that you're not thinking about PFS 24/7. That's a fast track to driving yourself fucking crazy. One of the most important things you can do is to get control of your mind. Breathing, meditation....I'm going to bet you're not doing them given the erratic nature of your posts.
You're like a yoyo man. You need to get your head on straight.
I'm also going to suggest you do some research on why complaining should be avoided at all costs......