Well said. In the beginning I used to think about how I felt before this happened to me and wish I could go back to that so badly. I never think that way any more and haven't for some time now. My thoughts are all about the present and what can I do today to make myself better, and the future and how I cant wait to be a better person than ive ever been before. It's crazy I met my girlfriend about 4 months after I crashed (I never really had sexual sides only mental). She knows all about my condition obviously. I have never been around her without being a PFSer. It affects my ability to enjoy things with her sometimes and make plans for the future just stresses me out and causes symptoms. She wants me to stay at her house sometimes and I literally have to bring a suitcase for all of my supplements. I imagine a day when I dont feel this way and can enjoy life again totally and more fully then ever before. In the mean time, I'll continue to ride this f'n rollercoaster.