Quote Originally Posted by RebelWithACause View Post
Thanks man. Your posts and attitude inspired me. Same for guys like Maxout, bizzbee and some other guys who recovered on here. Also Chi was a big inspiration to get this shit over with and push to the limits. Plus the guys on Hackstasis forums gave me inspiration too. They are all good guys. We were bitching sometimes to each other but most people on Hackstasis are/were top notch dudes, you can tell. But just struggling with this shit. I see the same here. Bunch of good dudes but sometimes PFS fucks with your head when you are in it.

And also I cannot thank gbol/Helen enough. I saw some people criticising him on other forums. But in my opinion he is on a next level. Harder to understand but when you do, even if it is a % you will see that he has some genius insights. Would be cool to talk to him once in a while. But I get it if he is doing other stuff. He was busy AFAIK.

I can post an official post on here if you want but I have posted two posts now about recovery. I think I do not have much more info left to give to PFS guys. Plus I have not followed your protocol to a T. So I am not sure if you want my story in that section. Although of course a lot of overlaps and I definitely used things from your protocol. If you want me to I will do it.
I'm really pumped for you man. You kept on going. That's what I said from the start- my first novel I wrote there in October 2017 lol.

I'm pretty bummed out that forum is gone. Like, we were novices to the health game for a long time there and certainly are still students. We all are in the health world. But now sometimes recently, if I want to search for something in the hackstasis search engine- I'll find something Helen wrote and now I understand it. Back then, I'd be clueless but here we are 3-4 years later and suddenly most of what he writes makes sense to me.

Its shocking to me that I can read it now. Because back then I was completely lost... WHILE his stuff was helping me incredibly. I just had no idea why, what, where, how. Now looking back I understand it.

Recently, just his emphasis on NAPDH has helped me so much. Focusing on that cycle has helped me piece a bit together about whats going on with me. I've known that NADPH oxidase has been upregulated the last several months and really dating back to mid 2020 when I fell apart again. The last month it got psychotic. Come to find out I just received mold testing back... crazy elevation of gliotoxin in my urine which upregulates NADPH.

It's looking like antibiotic damage in 2019 combined with girlfriend's old moldy apartment led to this. But huge finding as it seems pretty easy to treat, already feeling a bit better a day into treating it.

I really hope Tubzy can give us access to that forum. You gotta understand. I wrote there 4 years straight every single week just like you @Rebel. It feels like our whole stories we told as we've battled is freaking lost just gone. No proof of it anywhere.

I always wanted to be like Cdsnuts and be able to have that journal somewhere to read when I get better. I always thought it must be so cool being CD, being chi, maxout, english, amongst others who can go back and read their experience. AND be like "I'M THAT FUCKING DUDE. I DID THAT. YA THATS ME." And I felt that way in 2018 when I was nearly recovered. Just going back and reading my log in from late 2017 through mid 2018 made me feel proud when I was doing so well.

I hope we can get hackstasis back up somehow, someway. I know we have people that are willing to donate- me being one of them.

Tubzy, I'm here whenever you wanna talk man where ever you are. Also, at very least would like to get the file of the site back up so I can at least get some stuff out of there that I'd like to have.

That is all!