I hope that taking the benzos didn’t reset my progress at all, hopefully it just delayed things and I’m just in downswing. I’m hoping for significant progress in the back quarter of this year.

I also have to stop obsessing - OBSESSING - over the transplant and regret, etc. If I’d had any idea that it would affect me this way mentally, there’s no way I would have done it. I just hope that that anti-scar tech proves itself out and then when it’s time, I’ll be able to shave with no signs of any scars. But either way, I will get through this and it shouldn’t become this big or life-changing deal. I need to believe that.

Does anyone have any suggestions for dealing with high anxiety? I feel like I need some encouragement as well.