Beginning of my recovery story

[Malibu]

Hang in there Thetfordboy, you’re going to be fine my man. What you are describing is familiar, perhaps the most vulnerable stage of PFS, where it’s early on and a crazy storm of psychological and physical dysfunction that’s hard to describe. But guess what, like everyone else you’ll get to the other side, you’re in the right place with this forum, and sadly a lot of other pfsers can’t say the same. Your fears are understandable but don’t be fooled into thinking what you fear is permanent.

And also, this might sound crazy, but a bit of anxiety and fear might actually be a good sign. I remember in my early days, I was a complete anhedonic zombie. No emotion at all, if I was to see someone get hit by a car I probably wouldn’t feel anything. It was only after starting on the protocol that a few months later I started getting some anxiety, fear, and anger again, (and thankfully some positive emotions too.)