I think it's more the uncertainty because I crashed from a completely different chemical and the fact that I was having convulsions and insane headaches that felt like an aneurysm when I first sometimes makes me unsure if it's some sort of organ damage (if it's like a stroke full recovery is kinda bleak - though I did have a CT scan right after the convulsion episode so they would most likely have caught a stroke but after seeing that doctors aren't perfect not always sure). I'm going doing everything in my power though to make it so if recovery is possible I will do it AND I am seeing improvements so it does seem like run of the mill PFS.
I think also during down swings it's harder for me to stay positive because the down swings in themselves I'd imagine = lower neurosteroids so easier to be depressed.