Don't know if it's because I'm running out of PP, but I am in a huge downswing right now. Mood, libido, sensitivity, tinnitus, anhedonia; everything is bad. I have a hard time forgiving myself for taking that poison, and I can't wrap my head around the fact that a single pill damaged me like that. I thought I was making quick progress, but it seems no one escapes from the zigzag pattern. A few days ago I reported feeling 110% mentally, and now I don't see the point. I really try my best, but despite reading recoveries, my hope is crushed and I fear this thing might drown me.

I will stop logging in here for a while. I wanted to accurately describe my journey, but I see that documenting my lows does no good to this forum or me. This place radiates positivity and deserves better than that.

I will keep up with the protocol 100% as I have done, keep pushing guys, much love