Vahn's quest for glory and saw palmetto destruction!!

[Vahn]

Hello everyone.

Long time no see.

I decided to post an update when I received an e-mail notifying me of a DM I got.

I was fairly sloppy implementing the protocol in the beginning but eventually became fairly strict since my last post all through 2021/2022. The only thing I didn’t do consistently was the bathmate. It hurt too much, even with just a couple of pumps. I also didn’t do the prohormones.

Unfortunately, I cannot claim recovery, or much real progress for that matter. I stopped the protocol a while back. Even after a year doing the feast, paleo diet, HIIT, cold showers, sunning the boys, breath work, logging off, supplementation (cycled all of them as outlined), counseling and living my life as normally as I could, my libido was still shot, I still had ED, my genitals were still numb and deformed… just as bad as they were when I crashed, despite some upswings.

In fact, I’ve seen some better days off protocol. Not trying to dissuade people from doing the protocol at all, as it seems to work for many. Just saying how it went for me.

The veterans here might judge me for not adhering strictly enough, or long enough. Or maybe my better days off protocol were because I was on protocol earlier and a good indication for better things to come. And that might be true, I don’t know. But I did my best. I got laughed at and ridiculed for my diet changes, for taking a supplement every afternoon, for not drinking anymore… I didn’t care. I did what I had to do. Was I perfect? No. But I did as best I could.

So be your own judge. I just stopped seeing the use in doing all of it when even a year later nothing had changed, really. Sometimes up, mostly down, no real upward trend. Maybe I’m one of those who needs years on protocol to see actual improvement, I don’t know.

My penile tissue is still numb and completely destroyed. My testicles are still shrunken and weightless. It just never stops. It’s always there in some capacity, even during upswings. I guess I didn’t have much hope anymore of it ever returning to normal after all this time, and with that, the hope I vested in the protocol went with it.

I hate to come bearing bad news and I want to reiterate that the protocol does seem to work for many. But this is how it is for me. I’m not trying to fear monger, I’m just laying it out as it is. This is my reality (not necessarily yours).

I still live a healthy lifestyle. Maybe I’ll return to the protocol when I see the light and find hope again.

Good luck everyone. You’re all warriors.